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Eli had left for work, so it was just me, I didn't have any classes today. 

I was laying down, staring up at the ceiling crying. My body was shaking and I felt like I couldn't breathe. 

What had I done?

The only thing that made being with Eli bearable was pretending that he was Sarah. 

Am I going insane?

Why was I doing this?

the thing is that before Sarah, I had never been lucky in love. No one had ever seen me the way that Sarah does. 

I just don't think I'll find anyone else, but I can't bare to go back to her. 

She was happy, filming, I had left her, made her cry. 

I was too ashamed of myself to get her back, So Eli.... I just had to settle with. 

Like most things in my life. 

I'm getting too old for.. hope.

What the fuck is wrong with me?

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Sarah pov

I had got off the plane, landing in New York, making my way back to the apartment. 

I forgot how empty it was without holland. I hadn't seen her in three months.

I felt stupid as I walked around the place, thinking that she might be there. Hoping that it was all a dream. 

I took a shower, got changed, letting my hair dry in its naturally curly state, before jumping in the car, not waisting a minute to get to Philadelphia.

I know it's holland, but I was still nervous, what if she didn't love me anymore. 

It's a big risk that I'm taking, but so is completely giving up on her. 

My love. 

I rang the door bell after two long torturous hours in the car, going over what I should say, nothing felt right. 

I thought she might be at school, but I wanted to try her house first. 

"holland", I spoke as the door began to open

"Sarah", holland breathed in disbelief 

"Holland I lov-"

"who is it babe?", spoke a man coming up behind her, pulling her into his side. 

Holland hates being called babe. 

holland just stood there

"I'm Sarah", I smiled shaking his hand "who are you?", I asked, not wanting to know the answer

"I'm Eli, Hollands fiancé", he greeted me brightly, making me turn numb 

"fiancé", I swallowed 

"yeah last night", he kissed the side of her head 

meanwhile Holland just hung her head low 

"well I'm very happy for you both", I smiled bitterly, walking off 

"Sarah", I heard holland call weakly 

I couldn't let myself cry until I was out of the street, but once I turned that corner, floods appeared.

engaged?.... to someone else.... a man.... to someone else. 

someone else. 

I couldn't process what I had just heard, but I was no stranger to the situation. 

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