"oh Sarah, what are you doing here?", holland said opening the door "its late darling you should be at home"
"holland we need to talk", I spoke sheepishly
Holland took a step forward cupping my cheeks "is everything okay angel?"
"I hope so", I smiled
"come in, can I get you anything?"
"no I'm okay", I nodded
"there's a fire burning in the living room, do you want to go there?", she asked placing her hand on my lower back
I nodded walking with holland, settling ourselves on the couch, facing each other
"what is it that you want to walk about?", holland inquired
"last night I asked you what is it that we have, and you just told me to go to sleep", I spoke
"I know, and I'm sorry, the whole day I've been thinking out how dumb I was for not answering you. I shouldn't have ignored you like that"
"you're not dumb", I sympathised "I don't think that I would have known what to say either", I admitted
"Sarah what we have is very risky-"
"because of your job?"
"forget my job for a moment. you're so young and-"
"I'm sorry", I stood up
"where are you going?", holland spoke confused
"I thought you were ending whatever this is, so I'm leaving", I looked back at her
"stop jumping to conclusions, sit down", she demanded
"I have never felt this way before, you make me feel things", I mumbled
"you make me feel things too", she smiled raising my head by my chin "darling, the fact that you're so young scares me, how little you've experienced. It feels as though I'm taking advantage of you"
"I want you to take advantage of me", I moved closer
"oh sweetheart", holland kissed me lightly "that doesn't sound as good as you think it does", she laughed
I giggled, despite feeling rather idiotic
"I like what we have. I like that I can talk to you, you make me feel safe. I like when we're together, when you touch me, when I touch you. I like staying here, being with you", I spoke
"I do too", holland whispered
"could we not be something?"
"in what sense?", holland breathed
"I'm scared", I stuttered
"come here", holland pulled me into her lap "why are you scared darling?"
"because, you're just so incredible", I spoke
"Sarah sweetheart, you have no idea how incredible you are. I don't want to deprive you of the world that you have yet to discover", holland ran her hand up and down my thighs
"I have experienced more with you in four months than I have in my entire life", I confessed shyly
"I just don't want to hurt you", Holland whispered
"thats a risk I'm willing to take", I kissed her
"I'm too old", holland quivered
"you are the most exquisitely beautiful woman I have ever seen", I caressed her cheek
"this just isn't right", she held my wrist
"who are we to say that is right and wrong", I gazed at her intensely
"what do you want?", holland closed her eyes
"I don't want you to forget I exist", I took a deep breath
"I couldn't even if I wanted to", holland smiled
"we don't have to figure anything out. It's been two weeks since we kissed. Why should we rush?", I pressed my forehead against hers
"we don't, you're right"
"I'm always right", I smirked
"that hasn't seemed to be the case thus far darling", holland kissed my forehead
"can I stay here tonight?", I mumbled
"of course", holland smiled kissing me deeply
--
"just come in when you're ready sweet girl", holland kissed my forehead before leaving me to get changed
I stood in the doorway of holland room, watching as her naked body walked into bed. She is perfection.
holland pulled the covers up around her chest, and began reading.
I took a few deep breathes before entering.
"hi darling", holland smiled, closing her book and placing it on the floor beside her
I stood at the end of the bed, just simply watching her as she sat up and the blanket pooled around her hips
"is everything okay angel?", holland ran her fingers through her hair
I observed every detail of her, there were no imperfections.
I closed my eyes, before starting to undo the buttons on the shirt. I didn't dare to open my eyes, scared of hollands reaction.
At the last button I dropped the shirt off my shoulders, letting it cascade to the ground.
when I opened my eyes, hollands face had barely any expression, however her eyes couldn't stay still, tracing over every part of me.
I had never felt so suddenly exposed, but I didn't want to be weak.
holland moved closer to the end of the bed, so did I.
I kneeled on the end, only for holland to quickly grab my waist, pulling me towards her, taking my nipple into her mouth
"oh, god holland", I moaned as she kissed all over my chest while her hands trailed down my back to squeeze my ass.
"you're so beautiful", holland growled against my body, flipping us so I was underneath her
"I'm not ready", I swallowed
"neither am I", she smiled before continuing to kiss me, slowly making her way up to my mouth.
my legs were wrapped around her waist, keeping her as close to me as humanly possible, as the kiss continued.
I don't remember exactly when we stopped kissing that night.
--
"good morning darling", I heard from behind me as my eyes began to flutter awake
"good morning", I groaned, turning around so that I was in hollands chest
"what time is your first class sweetheart", holland held me tighter
"twelve thirty", I mumbled
"okay, so back to sleep my angel", holland whispered caressing my waist
short chapter sorry.
what do you think should happen next?
