"Sarah Paulson?", the doctor called out, indicating for holland and I to stand up "follow me", she smiled before walking down the hall "just have a seat there"
"thank you", holland replied
"it's very nice to meet you Dr.Smith"
"please, call me Erin, and I'm very glad to meet you both too"
"will you be Sarah's obstetrician through this whole pregnancy?", holland interrupted, clearly very nervous
"unless you request another doctor, then yes", she smiled before she began to ask me countless questions, recording them down, turning back to me once she had finished "before I get you up for a scan, have you decided if this will be receive the sperm through a mutual friend or through a donor?"
"a donor"
holland and I had decided on an anonymous donor, because of my job we didn't want anyone taking advantage of the pregnancy or to later request for custody or money
"and have you yet chosen your donor?"
"no we have an appointment this afternoon"
"okay great, well I'm sure you will choose well.. why don't we get you up on the table", Erin stood up, grabbing gloves while I lay down, holland holding my hand tightly
"are you okay?", I asked looking up my love
"yeah, just a little nervous", she chuckled sweetly
"me too", I gave her hand a squeeze
"okay so this is going to be a little cold", Erin warned before squeezing the liquid onto my stomach
"so what exactly are you looking for?", holland looked at the screen
"I'm just checking if Sarahs body will be able to the carry the baby safely, and by the looks of it everything seems perfect, and your blood work got sent through and they're all great, you should have no problem having a baby Sarah", Erin shot my a smile before handing my a towel to clean myself with
"so what happens now?"
"well once you have decided on a donor, we will be in contact with them and they will bring the sperm here for the insemination, and after that it's just a matter of fate and a little medical assistance", she concluded with a wink
"okay", holland nodded taking everything in
--
"holland stop, I can't breathe", I pushed her arm
"really because I think he's the perfect match"
holland and I were seated in a private office looking though the forms of the potential donors for our baby
"what about this one.. black hair, brown eyes, six foot, 100 IQ-"
"no, I found the perfect one", I interrupted
"tell me princess"
"green eyes, dirty blonde hair, six foot one, 140 IQ, a teacher, no past medical history and no family medical contributors", I read allowed to holland
"wow", was all she could formulate
"it's like you but in a male form", I showed her the paper "and I want the baby to be like you too, and look"
"darling thats very sweet", she kissed my palm
"he has the same IQ as you", I spoke trying to convince her
"I know.. he does sound perfect"
"whats wrong holland?"
"it just all feels very real", she took a deep breath
"are you having second thoughts?', I panicked through a calm voice
"no darling, not at all.. I'm just excited, nervous, I'm feeling a whole bunch of emotions right now"
"me too holland", I cupped her cheeks "but I love you, and that's all that matters, just you and me"
"forever", holland kissed me
--
"god you two look exhausted", Ryan commented walking into our place dinner
"why thank you", I mocked
"how are my ladies?", he asked while holland passed him some wine
"actually we need to talk to about something", I moved behind the kitchen island to stand next to holland who wrapped her arm around my waist
"you're not leaving the show are you?", he his body tensed
"no nothing like that, umm.."
"were going to have a baby", holland joined
"holy shit, wow, congratulations", he came over hugging us both "wait you don't my-"
"ew Ryan no", holland cut him off quickly "we've already picked a donor"
"I can't believe this, I am so happy for two, and perfect timing I must say"
"and why is that?"
"because we start filming the next season in three weeks and after that we have decided to take break for a year to work another project before going back in for season five", he explained
"sounds like fate doesn't it honey", holland whispered, making me blush
"so, thats means we should start trying in September ", I remarked
"lets raise a toast laddies, to knocking Sarah up"
we laughed clinking our glasses, repeating his words
--
"if you could get me pregnant, I would be having twins by now", I panted
"that's the weirdest compliment I've ever received", holland laughed kissing me deeply
"god I love you", I moaned
"I'm just letting you know that we are going to have so much sex while we still can"
"don't think I'm going nine months without you darling", I whispered straddling her again
HEHE
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