tw- weight, body changing, stretch marks, hateful thoughts, clothes not fitting
"holland?", I yawned walking out of the bedroom after waking up alone "what is going on over here?", I giggled walking over to our girls, who were laying in a little fold-out crib that we had put next to the couch last night while watching a movie "why are you two naked? huh? where is your mamma.... oh there we go", I picked them both up, cradling them on either side "should we go find your mamma?.... holland?", I called out again
"hi darling", holland walked up behind me, kissing me softly
"where were you?"
"I needed a cigarette", she kissed me again
"did you hear that! mamma left you naked in the living room so she could have a cigarette!"
"I was watching them", holland held up the monitor in her hand
"well at least you two were in safe hands", I rolled my eyes playfully
"breakfast?", holland kissed me once again
"yes please.. do you two want breakfast?", I went over to the couch, sitting down before letting them feed
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"okay they're asleep", I slowly closed the door behind me, joining holland on the couch
"you look beautiful with your hair down like this", holland wrapped one of my curls around her finger
"thank you", I blushed- which I hadn't done in a while
"my gorgeous, gorgeous girl", holland whispered, leaning in to place a soft kiss on my cheek, making the crimson red on my cheeks intensify
"I love you", I breathed
"I love you my princess"
holland moved to cup my cheek, making her darling green eyes meet mine
"I want you to kiss me", I leant in
"well isn't that convenient"
hollands lips met mine, a kiss of passion began instantly. Hollands hand moved from my cheek to the back of my neck pulling me in further
"oh holland", I gasped at her lips on my pulse point
as her lips caught mine once more, I carefully straddled her, her hands resting on my waist, before going under my shirt to touch the flushed skin on my back
"wait", I paused, pushing myself up, running quickly into the kitchen
"what is it my love?", holland called over curiously
"it's been five weeks since we've had the girls", I remarked looking through hollands diary
"meaning?"
"we're allowed to have sex again", I turned around, noticing holland was stifling a smile by biting her lower lip
"I've been dying to taste you again", holland spoke sensually coming up to kiss me again.
My arms wrapped around her neck tightly, making sure there was no room left between our bodies, our bodies that quickly began backing into the bedroom
"I've missed this", holland purred while hovering above me
"Holland please", I begged, pulling her down to capture my lips between hers, out tongues moving in a syncopated rhythm that made me melt
