"oh good girl, look at you roll", I childishly clapped my hands at Alice as she rolled from her back onto her stomach
"darling?", hollands smiled slowly faded as she was sitting beside me on the bed watching the babies
"hmm?"
"you're leaking"
"fuck me", I groaned getting up to change "that's the second time today"
"I know angel", holland smiled softly, kissing the side of my head once I had sat back down "why don't you feed them?"
"because I fed them an hour ago", I took Lorelei into my arms kissing her little cheeks "I mean I would rather feed then give them formula but.... mommy doesn't want to keep leaking milk does she now? now she doesn't?"
"we did change their schedule, that's probably why it's happening I'm sure your body will catch up sweetheart"
"but it's been going on for almost a week"
"well it's up to you my love, formula is still nourishing", holland assured me "Erin already gave us some brand recommendations and she would only give them the best"
"I know", I kissed her softly "we'll see"
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"can I see how it would look if that part was tighter?"
holland, the girls and I were at a fitting for an upcoming event that we had to go for Ryan. The girls weren't coming of-course, but the fitting was their little introduction to our lives.
"doesn't mommy look pretty", holland swayed, holding the girls in front of me
"god they're gorgeous", Karla gawked "how old are they now?"
"five months last week"
"they're growing up so fast"
"aren't they just"
"okay do you like that better?", karla asked once the adjustment had been made
"I love it", I nodded, turning to view all angles in the mirror "it's gorgeous karla"
"well let's get you out of it", she smiled bright unzipping the back, I stepped out leaving in my underwear only
"hi my girls", I took them into my arms "are you two hungry?", I quickly avoided embarrassment noticing that my breasts had began to leak, so I took them over to a chair letting them feed, while holland began getting fitted, even though they weren't hungry
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"okay so call us if anything goes wrong, and I mean anything. I was pumping all of yesterday so there's milk in the fridge, don't let Lorelei on her stomach for too long or she'll spit up and-"
"darling I raised three babies, go have a good time. you two look gorgeous"
"thank you for doing this mom", I brought her in for a tight hug "by my little sunshines, oh mommy's going to miss you so much, my little angels"
"darling we need to go", holland tugged on my arms "they'll be okay, they're in perfectly safe hands"
"okay okay, kisses", I leant down kissing them both "be a good girls for grandma"
holland practically dragged me out of the apartment, and down into the car waiting for us
"it's okay my love", holland kissed me sweetly
"we've just never really left them.. they're all alone up there, what if they need us"
"darling, they're not alone, they're fine.. I'm excited to have just you for a couple of hours.. this will be fun, it's good to get out", holland wrapped and arm around me
