'hi holland it's pam'
'oh hi, how are you?', I stammered awkwardly
'I'm fine, you're on speaker'
'who with?', my voice shook involuntarily
'its me holland', pat spoke up
'it's good to hear from you two', I lied
'bullshit', one of them whispered, most likely intending for me not to hear
'so pat came over today and we found out a little news in the paper'
'news?', I responded pretending to be clueless, hating this whole situation
'congratulations on your daughters'
'oh.... thank you'
'so.... were you planning on telling us?'
there it was.. the question I didn't want to answer
'well of course'
'don't lie to us holland', pam spat
'we haven't spoken since mothers funeral which was over two years ago, and before that.. god we're not even a part of each others lives, I didn't think-', I spoke the truth quickly, wanting this call to end
'well we know now'
'so why are you calling?', I huffed
'are we never going to meet our nieces?'
'well we're not planning on coming back to Phili any time soon-'
'we'll come to you'
'no no, we're both very busy, trying to get used to this parenting thing, but next time we're in Phili I'll let you know'
'holland dont-'
'I've got to go', I closed the call abruptly, pausing to take a deep breath before plastering a smile on my now pale face "there are my angels", I beamed, walking into the nursery, watching as Sarah was feeding both of our girls on the chair in the corner
"say hi mamma"
"don't worry ladies, your mouths are rather occupied", I went to stand next to Sarah, running my fingers through her hair
"are you okay honey?.... holland?"
"what oh sorry darling, I just zoned out, what did you say sweetheart?"
"I asked if you were okay?"
"always", I placed a kiss into her hair
"were you on the phone?", Sarah leant back further looking up at me
"what? no, just talking out loud"
"their umbilical chords fell off", Sarah giggled
"oh god", I shook my head "do they at least have cute belly buttons?"
"the cutest", Sarah moved her head back so I loud kiss her
- one week later -
"sweetheart? I'm home", I called out walking back into our place after going out to buy groceries
"honey", Sarah ran up to me quickly
"hi darling", I kissed her quickly
"wait holland", Sarah whispered pulling on my arm, stopping me from walking any further "your sisters are here"
"my what!", I hissed, my eyes growing wide at her words
"they called while you out asking for our address, I thought you knew that they were in New York, but when they got here they said that you didn't know.. should I not have-"
