Holland sucked on my bottom lip, holding it in her mouth for a moment as her hands gripped my waist, caressing over my clothed body.
"I love you", she spoke against my lips
"I love you", I whispered back as I held her cheek in my palm, leaning back for a moment to look at her
holland had never been this vulnerable before, I had never seen her cry, apart for when her mother died.
"what do you want to do?", I sniffled looking up at her
"I don't want to spend another minute away from you", holland guided my head to rest in her neck
"what do you want to do?", I repeated again
"I want to stay here, I want to quit my job, get my things out of that god forsaken house and live here.. with you", she kissed the top of my head
"what about your job?", I asked relaxing into her familiar touch
"I'll see if Columbia still wants me, and if not.. I'll figure something out princess", holland assured me, however I could help but shiver at her words
"say it again", I looked at her again
"princess", holland spoke lowly
"again", I breathed
"princess", she said connecting our lips
"I hate you for leaving me", I growled against her lips
"I know, I hate myself too", she said sadly
"do you want to order some food and lay in bed?"
"nothing would make me happier", she smiled softly, quickly picking me up
"holland!", I squealed as we made our way to the bedroom, holland laying me down before climbing in herself
"come here princess", holland pulled me in her arms, tangling our legs "mm I missed this bed", she hummed
"same.. I miss you being in it", I mumbled the last part
"I'm here now"
"how do I know that you're not going to leave again?", I sighed
"I promise I won't.. I need you to trust me", she lifted by head by my chin "do you trust me?"
"I did", I took a deep breath "and then you got a job, and didn't tell me until the night before"
"you don't know I much I regret it. I am so sorry", she almost pleaded
"I do forgive you", I nodded
"I love you so much my angel"
"I love you", I took her hand kissing the top of it
"why don't I go order some Chinese, and I'll be back in a minute", holland kisses me quickly before walking off
I wish I could trust her, but holland has spent her whole life hiding and running.. will she do it again?
"it should be here in thirty minutes", holland smiled walking back in the room, laying down on top of me
"holland?"
"yes sweetheart?"
"no never mind.. it's silly", I began running my fingers through her hair
"Sarah, just tell me", she looked up at me
"no, don't worry"
"Sarah, tell me", she demanded sweetly
