"and thats a wrap!", called Ryan causing everyone to cheer.
the room erupted into smiles and hugs.
"you're crying", Evan laughed hugging me close
"I don't want to let go of this character", I sobbed
"you're such a cry baby", he laughed pulling back "you're coming to the wrap party tonight right?"
"yeah of course", I beamed
tomorrow I have a flight back to holland. Just 30 more hours, and she will be in my arms again.
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Holland pov
"Sweetheart?", Eli called as I came home from work
"yeah", I spoke back dropping my bag
"how was work honey?"
"long, very long", I went up kissing him quickly before going to shower
"so, I thought we could go out for dinner tonight?", he spoke from outside the bathroom "what do you think?"
"yeah sure", I said back, not wanting to go
Eli and I have been together for a little over a month, he was a distant friend for a while, and I needed a distraction after Sarah, something so that I wasn't alone.
He isn't much, but he's kind and funny and somewhat good looking.
He is enough.
--
"thank you", I smiled as Eli helped me to my seat
"I love you", he spoke leaning down and kissing my forehead
it almost feels like I've switched roles, I used to protect Sarah, I used to kiss Sarahs forehead.. now he kisses mine.
"so..", I spoke looking at the menu "do you know what you want?"
"what we usually get?", he smirked
"perfect", I nodded
we ordered our meals and wine, continuing on with the night.
It was fun, full of laughter and such, I spoke like friends, he spoke like lovers.
"so how are you finding being the chair?", Eli asked in pride
"um, yeah it's good", I mumbled
"you don't sound to sure about that"
"well, I just thought I would be different", I shrugged
"how so?"
"well my job really hasn't changed, I just have more work to do and more decisions to make. And I'm finding it hard to get any of my new initiatives approved.. I don't know, it's just not how I though it would be", I spoke, knowing that I should have stayed in New York
"well it's still early, I'm sure it will get better. You're amazing at everything you put your mind to darling", he smiled taking my hand
"yeah, thanks..oh actually I forgot I got you something from school", I spoke reaching into my bag getting out a book "here, this book is incredible", I passed it to him
"holland you know I hate reading", he looked at me amused
"yeah.. no, don't worry", I took it back quickly tracing over the cover
I missed giving books to Sarah, she was always so excited. I miss the days that we would just sit and read, we both loved it.
Like that time when we were reading in the bath at the lake house.
We spent endless night reading, tangling our naked bodies together. We didn't need to speak, we just needed to be with each other, in any form allowed.
Eli couldn't understand that. Eli worked in maths, and hated everything about English.
"so, how is your work going?", I asked completely uninterested
I spent the next half another listening to Eli ramble on about maths, doing everything in my power not to fall asleep.
dinner ended, and he said that he wanted to go for a walk.
"hey, don't walk so far away from me", he laughed, wrapping an arm around my shoulder and we walked
"where are we walking to? I'm tired"
"I don't know, it's just such a beautiful night", Eli squeezed me closer
Eli and I walked, sitting down at a park bench, looking up at the stars for a while.
"holland?"
"hmm?", I looked at him
"listen, I know it's still early in our relationship, but I love you. We make a great team. You're beautiful, and smart and funny", he took both of my hands "will you marry me?"
"what!", I giggled "you're insane!", I scoffed
"why?, we work well together, we love each other, and let's face it, we're not getting any younger"
I sat for a moment, thinking.
I wasn't getting any younger.
Who needs a lover?.. I need a friend, somebody, something.
"fine", I breathed "ill marry you", I half-smiled
"oh holland, I love you so much", he spoke giddily before kissing me hard
"me too", I kissed him again, slipping my tongue into his mouth, imagining it was Sarahs folds, sucking on his top lip, imagining it was Sarahs clit.
she tasted better.
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"oh god, fuck yes, oh holland", Eli groaned as I made my way back up his body "oh sweetheart", he laughed
"what", I panted
"you have my cum on your chin", he wiped it off with his thumb before sticking his thumb in my mouth, making me suck "you give the best head you know", I held me tightly
"thank you", I spoke tiredly
"not that I don't like getting head, you're amazing at it, but when are you going to let me fuck you", he mumbled "I'm dying to get inside you"
"I don't know.. soon"
I had been with this guy for six weeks and he still hasn't touched me in that way.... which was perfectly okay with me.
"I can't believe we're getting married", he sighed in bliss
"neither", I swallowed
