"let me get this straight.. you can no longer take the job?", spoke Andrew the dean of Columbia University
"yes", I nodded nervously sitting in his office
"may I ask why?", he asked taking off his glasses
"My previous employment offered me the position of Chair", I explained
"I see, well honestly, I completely understand, that is a once in a life time position", he smiled
"thank you", I nodded
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"two weeks until the premiere and one week until you start your new job, this is so perfect", Sarah relaxed snuggling into my arms
tell her.
Now.
"Sarah I have to tell you something", I stuttered
"what is it honey?"
"god I don't know how to say it", I quivered
"It's something bad isn't it?", she sat up
I nodded
"tell me", she demanded
"I just want you to know that I love you so much my angel", I chewed my lip
"what did you do?"
"Mr.Chancellor offered me the Chair of the english department", I said lowly
"god I knew they'd miss you", Sarah laughed "why is that a bad thing?.. you didn't take it did you?", she smirked
Sarah looked at me while with an amused smile that quickly faded to a numbness
"you took the job?", she whispered
"yes", I choked
"why?", she looked down
"because I have been dreaming of this job since I can remember.... and I-"
"how long have you known?", she spoke still reverting her gaze
"almost two months", I swallowed
"two months!", she spat bitterly "when?"
"the day of your graduation"
"I can't believe this", she spoke angrily standing up from the couch
"I so sorry my darling", I walked after her
"when do you have to go?"
"tomorrow", I answered regretfully
"for fucks sake holland!", she raised her tone
"I didn't know how to tell you", I croaked
"and right now was the best time?", she screamed
"it's probably for the best anyway"
"what do you mean by that?", she turned to me
"you're so young, starting your life, your career. I've been through all of that already, I'm just holding you back", I tried to explain
"holland my have been over this a hundred times, you're not holding me back from anything!"
"well what about me!", I shouted
"what about you?", she dropped her arms to her side
"I have given up everything. My job, my home, my friends, my life.. I spent my money buying this place for us, giving you your career. And what do I get? A life of living in your shadow?"
