"why are you swearing so much?", holland chuckled walking into the bedroom
"I can't find my passport", I groaned looking through the closet
"well good thing you don't need your passport", holland smirked wrapping her arms around me from behind
"what do you mean?", I asked puzzled
"you don't need your passport if you're flying domestically honey", holland kissed my cheek
"oh okay, well then.. I guess I'm ready" I shrugged not wanting to go
holland placed her hands on my shoulders turning me around so she could kiss my forehead
"well, you should get going princess", she smiled gingerly
"I don't want to go", I mumbled
"I know darling, but it's only four months and it will fly by", she wrapped me tightly in her arms
"but I'm going to miss everything", I quivered
"you're not missing anything my angel", she kissed my neck softly
"I am going to miss your first day at Columbia, your birthday, our tenth month, eleventh month and one year anniversary", I cracked, gripping onto her sweater
"we will find a way to celebrate all of those sweetheart", she lifted my chin with her finger connecting our lips "and oh the memories that you are going to make", she tucked my hair behind my ear "I am so proud of you", holland hummed connecting our lips with more passion
"I love you"
"I love you more"
"I love you most"
"impossible"
"nothings impossible", I concluded
"okay well, no time for tears the car is waiting to take you", holland cleared her throat carrying my bags down to the car with me, before handing them to the driver while I stood anxiously on the side-walk
"come here", holland took me into her arms again
"I'm going to miss you, this is the longest that we will have ever been apart", I sighed
"what about-"
"voluntarily", I spoke and she nodded
"I love you, I will see you soon, call me when you arrive and whenever you can", she rambled hustling me into the car
"every night before bed?", I said out the car window once holland shut the door
"that was the deal", she squeezed my hand that was resting on the window sill
"I want you kiss you.. once more time", I spoke lowly with a hint of innocence
"we can't, there are paparazzi across the road", holland kissed my forehead before stepping back
Holland pov
stepping into our house I let myself be sad, be.... lonely.
there were always times when she wasn't home, but knowing that she wasn't coming back for four months made this place seem colder, emptier, even through all that was missing was a petite little blonde girl.. she took up a lot of space.
she left things everywhere, struggled to keep organised, but she was gone, her clothes weren't on the floor, her things weren't all over the bathroom, she wasn't following me around, she wasn't coming up behind me and kissing me every opportunity she got.
I know that it's only four months but for someone who has remained alone most of her loveless life, it was a rather shocking loss.
I didn't want to loose her.
what if she met someone? someone younger? someone who isn't limited by age to show her the many wonders of the world? someone who hasn't already live most of her life? someone who still has to grow, just as Sarah does....
--
'hello?', I groggily answered.. the phone brining me out of my sleep
'hi honey', Sarah giggled into the other end of the line
'oh hi my angel', I sleepily smiled
'where you asleep?', her voice dropped
'New York is an hour ahead so it's twelve-fifteen, but I don't mind', I said sitting up slightly
'oh god, I completely forgot, I'm so sorry let me call you back tomorrow', she stumbled over her words
'darling.. talk to me', I spoke calmly
'are you sure?'
'I just want to hear your voice', I yawned lowly 'how was the flight?'
'I managed', she chuckled 'got to the hotel about two hours ago, I had some dinner and now I'm talking to you', she sighed peacefully
'you sound tired angel', I mumbled my heavy eyelids threatening to close
'I am', she yawed loudly making me laugh
'why don't we get some sleep princess? hmm?', I pulled the covers up around me further
'I don't want to go, I miss you', Sarah mumbled
'well we can still stay on the phone, are you using the hotels phone?'
'yeah'
'well then we can put each other on speaker and go to sleep, okay? and that way we can wake up together too.. it would be like you never left', the more I spoke the more my longing for Sarah in bed increased
'okay, I like that idea.. holland?'
'yes sweetheart?', I lay down putting my love on speaker
'I love you'
'I love you sweetheart'
--
'hi darling', I beamed giddily into the phone
'hi', she spoke rather rushed
'happy ten months'
'yeah, ummm oh okay.. listen holland I love you but I'm getting called to set I'll talk to you later', she hurried before hanging up leaving me there with a deafening ring
we hadn't spoken for the last two nights and she was busy I understood that, but a little recognition of our time together would have been nice
not letting myself get sad I decided to take myself out to dinner, since no one else would.
walking down to Antonios I was stopped by a man on the side walk holding a paper
"hey, is this you?", he asked handing me the article
'American Horror Story star and her Mom? ...... 25 year old actress Sarah Paulson shares a sweet moment saying good bye before she leaves to film the new season of American Horror Story, is this woman her mother or someone making up for her mommy issues....'
I couldn't believe it, beneath the writing was a picture of me kissing Sarahs forehead while she was in the car
"um, no that's not me", I tossed it into his hand before turning around and going back home. walking to the mail room, into which I never went into fetching the paper before running upstairs
'Hi Sarah, I think we need to talk'
short chapter I know, I just needed a filler 🥰
