"darling, darling wake up sweetheart", holland spoke pampering my face with kisses
"mm, why?", I mumbled
"because we have to leave in an hour and I don't want to be late"
"calm down honey, it's takes twenty minutes to get there", I pulled her down to snuggle with me
"I know but you need to eat and get dressed. I made pancakes", she smiled
"you made me pancakes?", I beamed
"no I made the baby pancakes", holland kissed my cheek pulling me out of the bed, placing a robe over my body, before dragging me into the kitchen to eat
"these are really good, you didn't make these", I tested
"no I woke up early and bought them, but I didn't want to kill you with my cooking"
"well thank you", I leant in kissing her softly
"it's really cold so make sure you get rugged up okay"
"okay", I giggled
"why are you laughing?"
"because you're nervous, I can tell"
"I'm excited.. and nervous", she admitted which surprised me
"me too", I kissed her again
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"hold my hand", I whispered to holland as the standard ultrasound procedure began
"okay so you see that little peanut shape there?", Erin pointed at the screen
"is that our baby?"
"that's your baby. it's about the size of a grain of rice", she explained, pulling the screen closer so that we could see it clearer
"it's so tiny", I sniffled, tears spilling from joy
"oh darling", holland squeezed my hand, kissing the side of my head
"what about the heart beat?", I suddenly panicked
"don't worry it's too early, we'll do another ultrasound in two weeks for the heartbeat. It can be anywhere between six weeks and ten weeks so don't worry about it", Erin assured us "let's just move the scanner around a little bit"
everything looked the same to me, but as Erin moved the scanner around her face changed, her eyes squinting in the process
"is everything okay?", holland spoke quickly
"yes", she nodded "excuse me for a moment", Erin stood up leaving the room
"holland", my lip trembled
"I'm sure it's nothing my angel", she kissed me to stop my nerves
"I'm having a hard time believing you holland", I choked. only moments later another doctor entered along with Erin
"Hi Sarah I'm David, I'm just going to have a second look for you, if that's alright?"
"yes", I nodded nervously
"okay, let's see what's going on here", he remained concentrated on the screen while moving the scanner
"it's just there", Erin whispered
"yeah, you're right", he whispered back
"is everything alright?", holland asked, her voice wavering "is something wrong?"
"no nothing is wrong", David turned to face us "so can you this curvy shape holding your baby?", he showed us just as Erin had done moments ago
"yes"
