Pen - pen: Disarm my Pain

ENDINGS

This is a typical story without happy endings,
One must go through some challenges,
And the other must be happy,
This roaring waves will eat us beneath the ocean,
and the fate will be the barrier that prevents us from reaching each other again,

I still remember the first time that I've seen your face,
October 29th, weather is fine, making you shine,
eyes so round, lips so natural, height?
it's natural, (lol)
Sun so bright, so your skin too,
You're holding your umbrella,
i'm practicing my introduction like unorganized acapella,
I feel so dizzy from the heat,
The sweat was indeed a waterfall,
you suddenly turn around,
Smile at me,
My soul left the earth, I was so stunned,
You shaked my hands and put your glasses to see,
My handsome face (Lol again)
In the middle of the sea,
of people walking happily,

"What am I supposed to say when we saw each other's face?",
thoughts that hunts me before meeting you in that place,
"Is she will be disgusted? Is she will be irritated? ",
That she met a catfish who always post his good-looking face single-handed?

You're so simple, you're so kind,
while carrying a bag of groceries,
on your left hand,
So I offered you some help,
You smiled, and reached my hand for the bag,

I can clearly tell how my heart will react on this moment,
It beats so loud for you,
I just wondered if does your heart beats for me too?,

You said that you like books,
poems and quotes,
with a confident smile on my face,
Suddenly I boasted,
"I am a writer"

Hands are shaking,
awkwardness intensifies,
I was plucking,
The seams of my shirt,
so irritating,
But you laughed me,
you said i'm entertaining,

The day suddenly becomes dark,
and it is time to say goodbye,
So i decided to give a promise to make a poem for you and send it on the mail,
And you agreed to accept it as a gift,

On the time,

I don't want this to end this moment so fast,
like the sunset with clear dying orange sky,
its reflection on the water, my dreams, flying so high,
Reaching you while you wait on the clouds,

I wanted to make a prolouge for our story,
I just want to make a simple letter,
Telling how much i love you,

The songs that I wrote showing how much I really adored you,
Right from the very start, I wanted to show the world how lucky I am to have you,

I wanted to build the chapters so long and delicate,
I wanna cherish every single word that we will create, by means of making this story as small plate,
I don't want to stir some coffee right now and palpitate,
Ahh I see??, the connection of the small plate and our story?
Nah, they both carry delicious and tasty things,

In the climax of the story, I just want to add some challenges,
Did I add it intentionally?
I don't remember giving roses with thorns,
Or just our fate has a constant rule to follow,
and it will never be changed at all,

I don't want to get the ending so fast,
but i'm going to lit candles for your ever lasting smiles,
Roses for your sweet voice and touches,
here's your favorite book, I hope you'll finish it soon,
The book mark is on the remaining 5 pages,
Marking the words saying,

"Smile"
"Promise me"
"You"
"Should never"
"Be"
"Alone"

Tear marks on the leaves of the book,
blood stains on the cover,
she shot herself with a gun,
on the end of October.