Pen - pen: Disarm my Pain

LIGHT

I placed my hand on the lighter,
To take some fire for the bonfire,
I kept the scarf and round it to my neck,
To stay away from the colds of the night,

I am thankful for the wood,
Is it necessary to play it cool?,
fires brings me light,
For the woods bring me the fuel for my fire,

I told myself that I should be fiery,
Is it close for being a swimmer in the pool of envy?,
Or just a sailor on the surface of the ocean of insanity,
Or a fool playing the role that was given to me,

I have my own game!,
my play, my rules,
I've learned to build the walls to protect me,
And place my faith on top of those rocks,

Dying isn't the end,
shaping myself inside a box,
I grew up with walls,
I can't grow by myself,
Tie my neck,
Or I will leave,
Release my leash,
I wanted some ease,

Sacred words would break my heart,
and those stones can't break my bark,
I set my guard to shield the pain,
After it I was burnt with shame,

I just played the game swiftly,
Yet no one appreciates my talent,
I came from ease and wishing to end in peace,
But the struggles keep reviving me to take some seize,

The fires inside me burned my pride,
As I lay my hands to God,
And kneel my knees to the ground,
Keep my hands up high,
And surrender all to my Savior,
Together, I wanted to fly,

I started to close my eyes,
And let the spirit touch me,
The holiness he gave brings me chills,
And then I realize that I should test my skills,

The faith I should build was hanging,
It was rusty and old,
I wanted to restore it by knowing him,
And follow the tracks that he set for me,

The fires inside me keep chasing my shadow,
My past was deep and dead,
My present was still kicking,
And now I should take a bow,
To set the light and start the show,
For the readers of my masterpieces,
And this is how it goes.