Pen - pen: Disarm my Pain

GLOOMY

*credits to the owner of the art above, thanks I got an inspiration right now"

Hideous, that's me,
A sad looking society's enemy,
the darkest human in my dreams,
a sudden pinch if deadly gloom,

Am i horrible?,
Do I bother anyone on the looks that I have?,
Or just the society wanted a human to be "good-looking" by their standards,
And even life and death was ruled,
they can tell how and when you will die,
And suffer,

A sip on s hundred dollar tea,
a pale flame on the fireplace,
Rich in expectations and money,
But sadder than the blues and lonely,

Pessimistic, that's me,
I love to watch and judge the situation even more exciting,
burried lies just triggered it,
For it only brings unlimitted souls in me,

Writing,
The darkest part of my hobby,
Where I dispose my intrapersonal thoughts,
the way I can express my feelings,
after drowning from tears,
and killed by my own fears,
taunted by the hours and years,
And yes i am still alive,
No matter what,

Dark skies and cloudy afternoon,
I hope to see you soon,
I am excited to watch the falling sun,
Even it's cloudy,
Just to be with you,
just to feel your prescence in me,

Gloomy and anger,
therapy that brings me colder,
Anyone? Can you make me suffer?,
Or stab me with your words closer,
To my ears that can't hear,
To my eyes that can't see,
The worth that is hiding inside me
the worth that can't be seen by everybody,
Myself, My sadness left me,
And now replaced with Insanity,

Too long for the words that expressed sadness,
Can I say that this book is a compilation of Tears?,
Or teared with shears,
Because I am only an introvert being without peers.

Can we be friends?