Pen - pen: Disarm my Pain

MODNAR

Playful colors keep dancing on my way,
sunlight bends when it hits my eye glasses,
a blink of an eye, the haste of my eye lashes,
protects my eyes from burning to ashes,

It is too hot to be outside,
but I wanted a vacation,
Can I have a break for a little while?,
Because I want some extention,
Holidays for me feels like a short time skip before my execution,
I hate to experience this forever, I wanted to end this before I enter exhaustion,

This is a continous cut of a small blade, suddenly stabbing from my back,
when I sit, I always hear something that crack,
I maybe grateful because it feels like a divine chip, a hell of a snack,
That relieves my painful bones from a tangled lock,

I can say that I can rely this things to pure luck,
even I tried so hard to put an effort for this,
I always surprised with a tremendous shock,
I can get out of my own flock,
But time is ticking, I want to destroy the clock,
I don't want to say something,
But what the he'll is this? What the fuck?

I always get a random stone when I throw some flowers,
I started to throw some seeds, knowing that I might harvest something if the blessing will showers,
I always get mad, I think this is my special powers,
given the odds that it wasn't raining,
and the birds keep on picking the damn seeds,
they casually and happily chirping,
But I don't know what to do,
I can't blame the nature, nor disregard my feelings,
Even my lunch is walking away from me,
Because the racoon is constantly stealing,
I can't exert my energy for chasing and running,
I fully understand that they were just trying to deal with life, they wanted to keep on surviving,

I have 3 wishes in life,
First, I wanted to graduate with a degree,
Second, I wanted to be extremely rich, and I maybe don't want to start a family,
Third, if the second wish isn't possible to come true, I wanted to have 3 more wishes because I am dumb at making decisions in my life,

This is just life, and I wanted to survive,
This is the only precious thing for me right now,
And I hope that the racoon can't steal this from me.

I don't want to spill my eyes,
I don't want to be emotional,
I am not suffering from a mental illness,
I am not delusional,
I just wanted an ice cream pop,
Or a caramel latte frappe,
or a black forest cake with a cherry on top,

I am too cool for the summer,
Leave a dot on this line if you agree,
If you don't, I will go to your house a steal your precious thing and set you free. (XD)

I just wanted a snicker, so I ended up making it as a title.