Pen - pen: Disarm my Pain

DECK

I lost all my cards,
I am trying to keep you as an ace,
but I got burned,
it stabbed me deeply, it broke me in half,
I wanted to swear a thousand words,
but none of them came out,
I am still accepting it until it is bottled up every night,
I still love you, I still love the memories,
but the person I am trying to reach is different
from the person I loved,

Who am I to stop you from changing,
if it is the only way to make you happy,
it hurts me more than you could ever think,
I felt like a temporary brick to support your failing walls,
the warmth that comforts you from getting cold,
until you turn to be the one who brings it,

You don't have to owe me an apology,
because I gave these things unconditionally,
it broke me in the end because I expected something in return,
and the lesson I learned from giving too much is that we should not expect someone to give the same thing that we can offer,

I am just giving the love that I didn't receive,
I am sorry for having too much on your plate,
I am sorry for giving you the time that you need,
and I hope that my absence will provide you the comfort that my presence can't give,
and I pray that you find a person who will fully understand you better than me.