Pen - pen: Disarm my Pain

HOLD

How to hold someone who doesn't care about you?,
maybe holding her hands is the most dumbest way that i will going to do,
to love without any comeback,
to love without her,
a one faded smile,
The dying candle light,
and her watery eyes that fades quickly,
quickly as the winds that passed,
murmuring, sleeping, taunting to other people, I think she's safe,

but i can't clearly let her go,
leaving you is not in my mind,
I can see clearly, but my heart is blind,
telling the truth is the rule of nature,
and now, i'm here trying to merge something that will never bind,

I cannot rule the world,
Does this mean it's over?,
Should let her hand now?
Or continue hold the fever?,

This is a lying spree,
trying and escaping from the tags,
Just to be happy and free,
I have this hands to reach out the things,
That i really love,
But how far can it go?,
is there an easy way to redo the things?,
and just let it pass away, just let this go?,

I cannot hold you anymore,
My hands are weak, and so I am,
feelings can be manipulated,
can be arranged, can be taken for granted,
Half a smile, can be sorrow and hunted,
Tears can flow, I will never go back from where it started,

I'm taking my time,
Enjoying every moment, feeling the blaze of anger,
A sweet mild taste, better than honey,
revenge? this is selfishness darling,
Ain't no crime, don't hate me,
It tastes bitter in the end,

Can I hold you when you feel that i'm not too comfortable,
I'm not an evil villain nor a hideous person,
I can guarrantee you that I am an amiable person that will teach you a lesson,

You fell for materials that I can't afford,
Those diamonds, they can't shine without a light at all,
Can you survive so you can see the sun in the morning?,
Or the sun can't see you again, oh god she's mourning?,

Hammer is on the way,
Hatchet is a crazy thing to play,
A knife will be lovely thing to use today,
Or a chainsaw? Slowly torturing you,
You will pay,
I don't have a soul nor a conscience that stops me and says "hey",

A bloody floor and a screaming doll,
Her head was placed on a pickle jar,
No legs to walk,
No eyes to see,
Another creepy content for this evening,
Just for you end me.

This is just a fiction dear, calm down,
Don't you dare to skip this page,
Feel safe and sound,
this is somehow another dark concept,
So good to release this thing on Monday,
Be good and stay safe.