My Best Friend [H.S]

Chapter Seventeen

"Ellie what happened earlier" He asks.

"Liam broke up with me." I say, voice shaky. I try to hold back the tears that are stinging my eyes. He kicks off his shoes and lays down beside me.

"What are you doing?" I ask him.

"Comforting you." He says wrapping his arms around my petite body.

"Harry you don't have to," I say.

"No Ellie, you were there for me. Besides, what kind of friend would I be if I didn't comfort you?" He says.

I let myself cry. I sob into his chest. He rubs my back in a calming way. 

"I-I just feel so bad I hurt him." I cry.

"It's okay, it isn't your fault." He tells me. 

"But it is," I sniffle.

"Don't think like that. If you're meant to be you'll end up together somehow." He says.

Meant to be. I've never thought about it that way. It makes me shutter honestly. I do love Liam I really do, but when I think about being with him for the rest of my life I feel empty. 

"I guess you're right." I sigh wiping some of my tears. 

"Why did he break up with you?" He asks quietly.

I don't think I should tell him. I stay quiet and he looks down at me.

"El was it really that bad?" He says.

"It was. He's never gonna forgive me Harry." I say.

"What did you do?" He asks curiously.

"He accused me of having feelings for someone and hiding it." I tell him.

"Oh...well do you?" He says.

"I don't know..maybe." I answer. "Harry I don't know what to do."

"It's okay, you don't have to do anything. It'll take care of itself." He soothes. 

He holds me tighter as I cry into his chest. Maybe Liam was right. I've found myself caring more and more about Harry every day. He was also right when he said that I've probably kissed him or come close to. I remember that night in the field, back home, I felt so close to him and I wanted nothing more than to give in and kiss him. I knew it was wrong just like I've come to realize that maybe some of things Harry and I did while Liam and I were together weren't completely friendly. 

***

I've tried calling and texting Liam so many times and he hasn't answered a single one. So I decided to go to his dorm. I don't know what to do. I love Liam but I also don't know how I feel about Harry. I knock on the door and wait. Soon the door opens and Liam stands there with messy hair. 

As soon as he sees me he goes to shut the door. I quickly stop it from shutting.

"Liam wait!" I say. 

"What do you want Ellie?" He asks with no emotion in his voice.

"I just wanted to talk to you." I say.

"I have nothing to say to you." he replies.

"Please," I plead wanting to just fix it all.

"Fine," he says.

We make our way into the house and go to the kitchen.

"So, I've thought about what you said about Harry." I start off.

"And?"

"I don't exactly know how I feel about him but I have realized I like him in more than a friend way." I tell him trying not upset him in any way.

"So you do love Harry, I was right." He says sadness lacing his voice.

"I'm not sure. But I do love you Liam." I tell him.

"What good is that when you're in love with another guy. Just because you love me doesn't mean you're in love with me." He says full of hurt that I could of avoided if I just would of said I don't love Harry.  

"I didn't even realize my feelings for Harry." I say. "I don't wanna lose you."

"Ellie I'm sorry but I can't do this with you anymore. It doesn't matter if you love me and I love you because then he's there." He says. 

"And I can't do that to you. I can't keep hurting you. But I know it's for the best." I say grabbing his hand. Instead of pulling away he squeezes my hand. 

"Just one last kiss? Please." He says quietly. 

I press my lips to his softly. He puts his hands on my waist and I place mine at his sides. The kiss deepens and we continue to kiss as he pulls me down the hall to his bedroom. I push him onto the bed and he smirks. 

I'm making a real mess. 

***

"After this we're strictly friends, that was the deal right?" I say laying on Liam's chest.

"That's the deal." He says. 

"I'm gonna miss being with you," I tell him.

"I'm gonna miss you too Ellie, but it's what's best for us." He sighs.

"I know.." I say sadly. My phone starts ringing and I hold the blanket tight around my body and grab it. Of course It's Harry.

"Hello?" I answer.

"Hey, I'm at your place where are you?" He asks. I totally forgot tonight's our movie night. I hold the phone to my ear my shoulder and start putting my clothes on. 

"Uh I went to see uh...Zayn's dorm. Lauren wanted us to get to know each other more." I say. 

"Okay hurry back, bye" He says.

"Bye Harry." I say and hang up. "I've got to go, are you good?" 

"I'm fine, have fun with him." He says. I stand there a moment looking into his eyes and soaking up the moment. 

"Goodbye Liam." I say, chin trembling.

"Goodbye." He says just as sad. 

***

"Harry," I say entering the house.

"Finally you're back," He says.

"Sorry," i apologize. 

"Now tell me where you really were." He says crossing his arms like a Father scolding their child. 

"I told you, Zayns" I say. 

"You know I can tell when you're lying El," He says, his green eyes staring deeply into mine. 

"Fine, I was at Liam's." I admit.

"Oh, why?" He asks.

"I just wanted to talk to him again.." I explain.

"Did you guys get back together?" He asks quietly.

"No, I know we just can't happen anymore." I say. 

"Do you wanna talk about it?" He asks rubbing my arm. 

"No...let's just watch tv like we planned." I say. He nods and grabs the remote.

I don't wanna think about what I made Liam feel anymore. I feel absolutely horrible about it and I wish I could take it back and not feel things for Harry, but I can't. Now I have to deal with Harry. I don't know if this is just a phase I'm going through or if it's real. I'm gonna find out soon enough though. 

"Alright, what movie?" he asks as he sits beside me on the couch. "Ooo can we watch a horror movie, please?" 

Harry knows I'm not the biggest fan of horror movies but I just can't say no when he looks at me like that. So of course I give in. "Fine."

"Yay!" He says grabbing my face and kissing my cheek making me blush. 

Thankfully he doesn't notice. I watch as he turns on Sinister...oh great. I've heard that one's very scary. To make it even worse he get's up and turns the lights off. The movie starts and I prepare myself for it.