my biker | yeonbin

forty one

taehyun's pov

fuck... i just killed him. i didn't even realise i was raging and yeonjun didn't even do anything.
he was half alive when i was done beating him up. i finished him off with a butcher knife. knowingly. i killed him, knowingly, with a butcher knife. yeonjun doesn't know. i'll have to tell him. i called yeonjun. h e probably is with soobin at this moment. i told him about everything, from a to z. yeonjun told me to tell beomgyu that he instructed me to kill the guy. i was surprised, why would i tell beom that? oh right, because he'll leave me. yeonjun probably thought it would be better for him to take the blame. i was a coward to say the least, when it comes to beomgyu. i sighed as i ended the call. 

how am i supposed to face beomgyu now? its not like he'll leave me, right? fuck.. what if he does leave me.. i can't lose him. no, he's my everything. he's the only person that was by my side through the thick and thins. he understands me and most importantly, he loves me. no one else loves me like he does. he takes care of me and thinks of me before himself and fuck do i love his touches. his fluttering kisses and bone-crushing hugs. its him. its choi beomgyu, my everything. 
i wiped away my tears and washed away my bloodied hands. yeonjun has already ran off somewhere in a rush. my hands were bruised on my knuckles and my skin was torn. i called his number on my phone. 

" h-hey baby.." i said when he picked up the phone. i started sobbing " baby im s-sorry.." i heard him falling to the ground. his breath quickened as he started breaking down. " n-no. tell me you're joking, tyun.. p-please.." he sniffled as he couldn't believe it. i sobbed with him. " baby, i-im sorry.. i-i had to kill h-him.. yeonjun hyung, he-" beomgyu cut me off as he screamed in pain as he sobbed. "N-NO!! NO!! HE'S NOT DEAD. KANG TAEHYUN TELL ME HE'S NOT REALLY DEAD." i sobbed even more as i tried to wipe away my tears. " FUCK YOU! W-WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT?! H-HE'S INNOCENT!" i whimpered as i continued to listen to him yelling profanities at me. oh, if only he knew what really happened. but i couldn't tell him, no. i can't tell him, i won't. he's already suffered so much  from his brother. he doesn't need to know what that bitch was planning to do. " KANG TAEHYUN, WE'RE DONE. I HATE YOU. SO SO MUCH." i snapped away from my train of thoughts as soon as i heard those words. " w-what? baby.. n-no. i need you. baby i need you. f-fuck.. beomgyu, please. i didn't want to kill him." i blatantly lied about his brother but the rest was true. i really can't live without him. i can't envision a life, a future without him in it. no. i needed choi beomgyu to keep me sane. " you didn't think that when you killed my brother. you didn't think of me. i hate you so much, i can't even look at you anymore. i fucking regretted being with you in the first place," my tears just continued to fall as i heard him say his regrets. ".. you never showed me you loved me. you don't have emotions. you barely ever spent time with me. how did i even fall for you?" 

my heart snapped into two. how could he say that? he knew how insecure i was about it. he knew why i was that way and yet he still put that against me. but its okay, its the least i could take. after all, i did kill his only living family. i deserved it. " alright. w-whatever makes you happy, b-baby.." i said before he hung up on me. 

fuck. i just lost my most important person. i love him more than life itself. i would die for him. anything for him. anything he wanted, i would always give. because i love him and his presence was all that i needed. but its all gone now. and i realised..

the blame is on me. 

SHORT CHAPTER FOR TODAY LADS, IM SORRY. MY BRAIN HAS NOT BEEN VERY CREATIVE NOWADAYS.. I HOPE YOU ALL HAD A NICE DAY/NIGHT. REST WELL. TAKE YOUR TIME. YOU'RE ENOUGH, DONT LET ANYONE ELSE TELL YOU ANY DIFFERENT. and please, eat well, drink lots of water. stay safe <3