Healing a broken heart

Tickle monster and big ears

Healing Chapter 123

ELLAPOV 

We were finally able to drag Sean and Lauren out of the Clark's, fuck me I thought Norman was bad but he's nothing compared to how Sean is, he's like the energizer bunny of sex. Finally, we got back to their place.

"Mommy daddy Ming mean." She ran up to us as soon as we came through the door.

"What did he do baby?"

"Not baby. No play."

"He didn't huh yeah that happens baby but he's a teenager but mommy and daddy are here now, we have got to have a shower and then we're all you kids okay promise baby girl."

"Okay, mommy. Kiss mommy."

"Of course sweetie. Were you good for Misty  and Ming?"

"Yes, mommy." I kiss her and pass her to Norman who gave her a hug and kiss as well she's so much like her daddy I wasn't like that as a kid but then my parents weren't the best, they never showed me love so I guess I never showed love to them, I think I do okay compared to them I do worry that I don't show them enough love but I'm trying to, I'm trying to be the best mommy they can have. I'm also trying to be the best wife I can be. I just want to be what he wants I don't know if I am what Norman wants it always worries that I'm not that I'm just a convenient woman I'm just here and is he here just out of habit or convenience? I don't know why I still have doubts I always have doubts about how could someone as beautiful as he loves me. I'm nothing compared to him, he deserves someone that's the same as him, I've never understood, and I probably never will, I'll just accept it as the way it is.

"Babe you okay? You're spacing out again."

"Yeah what Norman ah I'm going to have a shower, change and pack and we'll be ready to go." I head toward our room.

"Babe?"

"Yeah what's up Norman?"

"You want to talk? You can tell me anything you know that right?"

"No, I can't babe not everything." He closes the bedroom door.

"What haven't you told me or what aren't you telling me, babe?"

"Why are you with me Norman? I feel like I'm nothing I'm just a mom. You deserve someone who's your equal and that matches you. But I don't."

"Why are you doing this babe? Why do you always doubt that I love you? I wouldn't say if I didn't mean it. I just want to make you happy."

"But I'm nothing like you."

"That's exactly why I fell for you. You're nothing like the women I used to know. You're the wife I need babe. Did you forget your meds babe?"

"I feel like a failure I bring nothing to the table I know I should be happy. I think I did I didn't take it last night I'm being hit on all sides at the moment. No antidepressants no hormone tablets I'm sorry."

"Babe you can't forget any of them they're too important. Go on take them now babe." I take my meds and come back to bed.

"The sad thing is part of me knows you love me, babe. I just want to make you happy, I worry so much if I do. Now you'll be in Georgia and I'll be in Montauk. I'm going to miss you, babe."

"Hey I'm not going anywhere not for months baby, baby don't think about it. I think you'll be very busy then you won't even miss me."

"I'll miss you."

"I expect you to, I will as well. But I promise babe you won't lose me babe I'm not going anywhere. Now you'll be feeling better soon those thoughts will be gone soon you know you're not supposed you forget those tablets babe. When I'm away I need to know you'll be okay. That I can trust you to look after yourself, babe."