Healing a broken heart

It can't rain all the time

Chapter 85

ELLAPOV

After talking to the sheriff and telling them what happened I'm in the car with Norman, I'm just looking out the window. I can't believe this keeps happening. I don't think I can cope anymore. Norman doesn't deserve this I've done nothing but destroy his life, he deserves better. I start crying.

"Hey, babe." Norman pulls off to the side of the road. "It's okay to cry, babe. I'm here for you."

"That's just it Norman all I do is screw up your life."

"No, you haven't."

"Yes I have ever since we slept together, it's been one thing after another."

"What are you saying? I don't think I like where this is going."

"Why does this have to be so hard? I never meant to hurt you, babe. All I've done is hurt you, we shouldn't be together I mean these have to be signs babe."

"Yes it's been bad luck but it happens, babe."

"It shouldn't Norman. I've been raped, attacked, stabbed, had three babies two of them premmies, got photographed getting fingered, had a porno released of me, had you accused of assaulting me, I've lost my uterus, our son got kidnapped and I just got kidnapped by a potential serial killer. This isn't normal babe you don't deserve me you deserve a woman that doesn't come with so many problems."

"What do you mean babe?"

"You deserve a woman that's not complicated, I'd understand if you wanted out."

"I don't want anyone else, Ella, you're the woman I wanna spend the rest of my life with, our luck has got to change sometime babe, please babe don't give up on me on us. I need you I thought I was going to die when you were gone."

"But I keep hurting you. I don't mean to but I do."

"No you don't, you forget I'm tough babe, it's my job to protect you but I haven't been able to do such a good job. It's all I want to do babe, let me protect you."

"You do a good job you saved me so many times Norman. I don't deserve you, you deserve someone beautiful, sexy, smart, and can stay outta trouble I just seem to attract it."

"I have someone beautiful, sexy, smart and when she gets into trouble she's able to help herself. Babe, I don't know many others that would've been able to do what you did. I heard what happened you fought him off babe and you ran. I could almost say that you ran like you were being chased by walkers and I was on my bike waiting for you telling me to hurry up and get on." I sniffle and smiled at him. "There's that smile I love, that I thought I'd never see again."

"You mean that? You're not angry that this keeps happening I'd understand the kids would understand if you needed a break."

"I don't want a break babe I just need you. If you and the kids left me I don't know what I'd do. I need you so much Ella, you think there's another person I'd want to be with? If there was wouldn't I've married them by now? No, I married you babe you're my soulmate there's no one else I ever want."

"I'm so sorry Norman forever saying any of this, I'm just so scared you'll hate me eventually because of everything that keeps happening, and I don't want you to hate me. I love you so much that it hurts that we keep getting hurt."

"I love you too babe. Now can I get you to the hospital?"

"You love me? I don't deserve you, I don't deserve happiness. That's why all this keeps happening."

"You deserve happiness, you've earned it honey for everything that's happened to you, you deserve happy I'll make sure we are." He reaches over and kisses me I love kissing him.