Healing a broken heart

Making her mind up

Chapter 17

LCPOV

I decided that if she wasn't going to help herself I would help her. I still come in every day to see how she is doing. She looks tired and flat-out exhausted. She needs to rest. I've stuck myself in the middle with these two. Norman's doing the right thing he went back to New York when filming finished. I promised him I'd tell him everything maybe not everything but nearly everything. Ella has such a cute belly when she's off her guard and lets it show.

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"Hello welcome to Ella's bakery. Oh hi, Lauren."

"Come on girl you finished you promised me we would go shopping."

"Yeah, I don't want to go thou."

"Well, you aren't having a say in it."

"Okay miss bossy."

"Yeah, that's me, because if I left it to you, you'd stay at home every night and we need to do something."

"Okay, I'll be good to go in a couple of minutes."

We walk to my car but she doesn't know we aren't going to the shops we are heading to a counselor which is what should've done when she was raped then this mightn't have happened. We pull into the car park.

"This isn't the shops Lauren what are you doing?"

"You need help these people help people like you that have been raped you need closure babe you need to speak to someone."

"I'm fine."

"No, you aren't. How are you going to cope when this baby is born and if it's his baby are you honestly going to be able to love it."

"I don't have a choice I have to."

"Babe, how can you be so sure that the baby's his and not Norman's?"

"I couldn't be that lucky. If I was to fall pregnant it's not going to be to a man I love."

"See this is what you need to speak to someone about."

"Do you speak to him?"

"Him? Yeah, I do he still misses you. He wasn't he's usual happy-go-lucky self last weekend but it didn't affect his fans just him."

"That's worse. I never meant to hurt him. I should've told him should've I?"

"Yeah, you should've. That man loves you so much, Ella. He hasn't forgotten you."

"He needs to."

"He won't until he thinks there's no use."

"I want to tell him but I won't do it until it's safe in mid-January."

"You mean that you're not just saying that so I leave you in peace."

"No, I made a horrible mistake. I can find out if it's his. Can't I?"

"Yeah, you can. So we're doing this you're going to tell Reedus about the baby?"

"Yeah, I will when he comes back from his trip with Mingus."

"Oh, that's so good babe. You're not saying that to shut me up are you babe?"

"No, I should've realized this baby's more than likely Norman's the cravings and hates I've had are indicators."

"What have they been?"

"Chocolate the baby loves chocolate anything chocolaty and I can't stand the smell of peanut butter Norman hates peanut butter."

"Oh, that's so sweet." I touched her stomach. "Hey, baby Reedus you making your presence known."

"Now you do need to speak to someone honey but I'll let you do it at your own pace."

"No, I don't. I need Norman he's my rock, he calms me but if he doesn't then I'll I promise I'll be okay. I just want him I've always wanted him."

"That's my girl."

I dropped Ella off and went on my way.

Ring ring...

"Hi, girl."

"Hi, Norman."

"How're things in Georgia?"

"Depends on what things you're talking about?"

"A pretty baker."

"Well, I have one pretty baker that's missing you."

"Ella's missing me huh?"

"Yeah, she is. I had a breakthrough today. She wants to see you."

"I want to see her too I miss her."

"But you can't see her before the 12th of January okay?"

"Why?"

"She's not the same Norman she's different."

"Different how?"

"I can't tell you but you'll be in for a shock when you see her. Don't be angry she did what she did because she thought it was for the best. She was scared terrified Norman. But she realized the error in her ways. You need to forgive her."

"She has nothing to forgive."

"Yeah she does but she's so sorry for it. I think she had a mental breakdown Norman she still needs help but she's getting better."

"Oh god, I knew something was wrong."

"You need to let her contact you she'll but you can't see her before the 12th promise me Norman you won't come before then."

"Why the 12th?"

"It's important Norman. Promise me you won't. She's not allowed to be stressed out it's important. Okay, promise me?"

"I won't."

"Good boy. By the way merry Christmas Norman."

"Thanks, it's the best Christmas. Thanks, Lauren."