Healing a broken heart

Welcome home help needed

Chapter 44

NORPOV

We brought Stella home things are going crazy what with work and a new baby forgot how hard it is. But I must say Ella was born for this role she's a good mother. I might ask her to start pumping as I feel a bit left out as she's breastfeeding which is good but I don't get to feed Stella I love feeding babies. At this moment Ella's asleep I have Stella in my arms even though she was a week overdue and two weeks old she still seems so small I can't stop looking at her she's so perfect a perfect mix of the two of us.

"Hello, beautiful. Who loves you? You're dad that's who."

"Well, you're not the only one who loves her. I love my sister she's cute isn't she?"

"Yeah she sure is but then look who her dad is he's pretty handsome."

"You're so full of yourself dad."

"I don't know I think he speaks the truth she doesn't get her good looks from me."

"So she doesn't have your nose and ears huh?"

"I guess. I'm going to take Stella to see poppy today."

"Okay, babe how are you feeling?" She walks into the kitchen.

"I'm okay just so tired I can't seem to catch up on sleep."

"You sure you want to go out?"

"Yeah, I need dad to know Stella."

"I want you to get a breast pump babe. That way you can sleep if Stella needs feeding."

"Sure yeah, whatever babe. Can you make sure Stella's dressed I'll have a shower and go out?"

I watch her walk away. I know she's not well but I don't know what to do.

"Dad? Is mom okay? She doesn't look well."

"I know Mingus I'll figure it out."

"I hope you do dad."

ELLAPOV

I don't know what's wrong with me I'm so moody my feelings are up and down all the time. No wonder Norman spends all his time on set and when he's not he's with Stella I don't blame I wouldn't want to be around me either. All I do all day is sleep and feed Stella that's it that's my life. They forget to tell you that you pretty much become a human cow, which don't get me wrong I love Stella I love her but it's not enough I just feel so sad all the time, I have no one to talk to everyone I know doesn't have kids so I can't talk to them. I can't talk to Norman he won't get it, he's not like me. I grab the first thing I can find to wear which ends up being yoga pants and a shirt yeah I'm just that terrible. I put my hair in a messy ponytail and go to get my girl.

"Norman is Stella ready?"

"Yeah, she's ready to visit poppy." I grab her baby bag and take her off him and walk to the car. I put Stella in her seat and walk around to my side of the car Norman's waiting there.

"Babe I want to help you. Let me help you. Let me in."

"I can't you don't understand, I don't understand this, I should be happy but I'm not I can't seem to make myself happy."

"I want you to see someone to talk to someone there are people that can help babe. Let me help you don't shut me out." He goes to kiss me but I turn my head away from him but he won't have any of that he takes my face in his hands and moves it so it's right in front of his and kisses me it was a kiss of longing if I know how that felt to be kissed like that then that would describe it longing.

"Baby come back to me. We need you. I need you, Stella needs you, Mingus needs you. Please, baby."

"I'm trying babe I'm trying. Help me I need your help."