Healing a broken heart

Deep and meaningful

Chapter 102

NORPOV

God dammit that was a long ass day. I can't wait to see my family. I hate being away from them I hate other people looking after Ella I want to but I can't but I'm here now so I will. I open the door.

"Daddy!" Stella comes running to me picks her up and kisses her.

"Hey, baby girl what you doing up?"

"Oh we Norman didn't know her bedtime so we kept her up and Ella had been asleep for a while so we didn't want to disturb her, she's had a rough day."

"I can imagine she has. I can't thank you enough for looking after her. Come here you two."

"Hey, brother. Good to see you, you look exhausted."

"Yeah I am, but only one more day, and I have a couple of days off. I should've asked Ella's mom to look after her save you guys coming."

"Like we'd be anywhere else bro. You need us we're here."

"Norman you need to talk to Ella. She's had a really bad day admittedly I haven't had any experience with people with chemotherapy but the girl has issues babe and she needs to talk to you. Go have a shower and go to bed Ella needs you. We'll put Stella to bed."

"Okay baby girl be good for your godfather. I'm going to see mommy okay." I kiss Stella and pass her to Sean. I walk off to our room what has happened now? I open the door damn it's chilly in here. Ella looks peaceful and beautiful. I have a long hot shower and it takes forever to get clean, I pity the maid this bathroom's trashed between Ella and myself. I walk over and kiss her forehead.

"Norman?"

"Yeah who else kisses you, babe?"

"No one I want. I've missed you so much." She wraps her arms around my neck.

"You've missed me huh?"

"Yeah. I love you so much and I'm so horrible babe."

"Why are you horrible babe?"

"I never ask how you are babe. How are you doing? How are you coping? Are you coping? I'm so sorry for everything babe for how I've been treating you."

"Ella I can't begin to imagine what you're going through babe. How am I doing? I'm doing okay just a lot on my plate babe, I'm coping babe, I'm scared for you that something might happen to you but that's to be expected babe I love you so much babe I don't want to lose you, I'm so scared of losing you baby, I love you so much baby I don't know what I'd do if you weren't here anymore or left me."

"I'm never leaving you Norman. I'm going to fight this until there's a breath left in my body babe."

"Good to hear. You have nothing to be sorry about, Ella you know this disease you have you're allowed to be selfish and care about yourself. You haven't been selfish when you're feeling good babe you look after me and the kids. Hell, I spoke to Greg because he asked how you are, how we are I told him we're okay and that we have been really good, that all things considered we're better than okay. The fact you even look at me is amazing babe, Greg was saying when his wife was sick they didn't do anything for nearly a year and she was on less chemotherapy than you are, that means you're doing so well babe. I'm so proud of you."

"I love you Norman. I'm so proud of you. I'm proud to be your wife. I'm so scared babe."

"I know you are babe."

"I'm so scared that this'll be too much for you that you won't be able to handle it and want out, so what do I do? I push you away. I don't mean to I never meant to be a burden to you I wanted this marriage to be fifty-fifty but it's not. You do everything and I do nothing I'm using you I don't want to when I can I want to do something I don't know what but I need to do something other than being a mom, so I'm not a burden to you."

"Ella you aren't a burden, you're my wife a very good wife you're the second bravest person I've ever known, you're the bravest person I know that's alive. I want to keep you that way. I'd give up everything if it meant you'd live babe you mean that much to me. It's halfway over babe. You're doing so well, it'll be over soon enough and we'll be right back where we started honey."

"I want that I want us. I'm sorry for having doubts and fears I'm so scared I don't want to be, I need you more than I care to admit Norman. I'm so sorry I know I keep saying it but I mean it. I want to be the best thing you deserve."

"You are babe, just don't push me away okay that's all I ask. I hate when you do that it hurts me more than anything you could do to me."

"I promise I won't ever leave you, though you need to move right now." I watch her get up and run to the bathroom.

ELLAPOV

I walk out I'm exhausted I see the man I love lying on our bed. He's so beautiful. Even though I don't believe in him I thank god every day that we met I think Lauren was right the man loves me, little old me it's an idea that amazes me. But I love him just as much as he loves me maybe more.

"Come snuggle with me. Babe, why's it so cold in here?"

"I'm hot like I'm having a hot flush I think I've thrown up my hormone tablets hence the moodiness and the hotness."

"They make you hot damn girl you better stop taking them you're super hot as it is."

"You're not funny Norman that's a horrible joke." I smile at him.

"There's the girl I love and the smile I love."

"Oh, that's it daddy fuck me make me cum so hard."

"They're not?"

"Yeah, they are babe."

"What's wrong it's Mingus's room, hell we haven't even been in the kid's rooms."

"Yes, we did don't you remember that one time..."

"At band camp."

"Ha ha very funny. You were putting Emma away and I got you to ride him in the chair we have there."

"Yes I do, okay they're forgiven by the way I didn't lose weight between sessions this time, I'm still ninety pounds but not less."

"Woo hoo babe that's awesome babe." Norman kisses me and pulls me toward him as he rolls onto his back.