Healing a broken heart

I wasn't there

Chapter 90

ELLAPOV

The kids and I are going to be all alone Norman's going to be at a convention in Montreal and Mingus is with his mum in Denmark, Norman asked me to go but my spider sense was going overboard and I felt I needed to be home something was going to happen I didn't know what but I listen to that voice especially when it's strong.

"Ella babe I don't have to go I can stay."

"No you go your fans are counting on you I don't want to disappoint them. Some already hate me don't need them wanting me dead for making you cancel."

"They don't hate you, well I'm sure some do but that's to be expected there are some crazies out there but most are fine. I want you to call me or Clark as soon as something happens and I'll come home as soon as I can. Okay?"

"Yeah, that's fine baby. I'm sure it's nothing. It's just being alone probably making me think bad thoughts."

"I'll call you in the morning I'll get in late or is it early there? I don't know but yeah I call my morning before the convention okay?"

"Yeah, babe. Now go fly safe I'll talk later. I love you. Did you say bye to the kids?"

"Daddy." He picks Stella up

"Yeah, Stella I got to go. I'll be home on Sunday night be a good girl for mommy and I'll see you and your siblings. Okay now kiss me, Stella." She kisses Norman. "I love my Stella kisses baby girl and momma bear come here. Here you go take Stella." I put her down on the floor she starts to cry

"Daddy go! Daddy go!"

"Yeah, baby he has to sweetie. Mommy won't be long. Norman don't feel guilty. I know you're working but I want you to chill out as much as you can okay? As long as there's no one else involved okay not that I have to say that I know you won't. Stella's just learning to throw temper tantrums babe she doesn't understand what you do she says that every time you leave. She'll be fine when you go. I love their daddy so much and I can't wait to see him on Sunday night how does macaroni and cheese, veggies and triple chocolate cheesecake, some of that fine scotch, and a long hot bath sound when you come home?"

"Sounds like heaven babe. Now I must go, babe. I talk to you later." He pulls me towards him and kisses me slowly and deeply one hand clutching my hair and the other holding my sizeable ass.

"You need to leave right now Norman. Otherwise, I'm going to chuck you on the bed and fuck you."

"You make that sound like a bad thing?"

"It's not but you have a plane catch. Love you Norman." He kisses me again and grabs his bag and leaves. Thank fuck he's finally out of the house, yeah I love him here but he procrastinates about leaving, I know he hates to leave the kids but we're fine, we have a play date tomorrow with Sonequa and her son.

Stella's so sweet, she walks so well, James's crawling, and Emma-Leigh's sitting up, I'm so proud of my babies and Mingus's such a good big brother I miss him I can only imagine how Norman feels.

"Ow, that hurt." It hurt to pick up Stella, I've been in discomfort for the past three weeks don't know why I mean it's not like I have my period anymore, I'll have to go to the doctor if it keeps up, it's getting worse sex hurts and I'm getting fatter but I'm hardly eating. I'm sure it's nothing.

NORPOV

Part of me doesn't want to leave I hate leaving the kids and Ella. Something's happening I don't know what with Ella I think she's sick but I'm not sure. Yeah, we're still sleeping together not nearly as frequently as we used to she says it hurts her maybe I'm in too deep, no that's not it she took both Flannery and me easily now it's just me and we haven't been able to have proper sex for a few weeks. I'm sure it's nothing but I have this bad feeling.