The Archer-Kate Bishop

Part 50

I woke up to see Kate fast asleep next to me, the duvet was draped lazily across our bodies. I let out a quiet sigh standing up out of bed and jogging downstairs. My parents sat at the dining room table talking to themselves. Clint turned his head to look at me and the two immediately fell silent.

"Uh good morning" I said feeling awkward by the silence.

"Morning how'd you sleep?" My mom asked.

She seemed oddly nervous, I shrugged my shoulders walking past them to grab a drink.

"Eh alright" I said.

Neither of them replied which was odd, I sighed spinning around holding my full glass of water narrowing my eyes at my parents.

"It was fine why are you guys looking at me like that?" I asked.

They looked at me like a wounded puppy and fuck I hated. I hated being treated like a victim.

"You sure you're ok?" Clint asked.

I groaned brushing past them trying to escape the conversation.

"No get back here" Laura said sternly.

I stopped turning on my heels to look at them, I leaned up against the wall looking at them.

"I am fine" I said.

"I can tell you're not Y/n you went through something really traumatic it's fine not to be fine" Clint said.

I ran my hand over my face shaking my head. I let out a breath before answering. The truth was I wasn't fine, I was struggling my anxiety was spiked through the roof and I couldn't leave the house without the fear of being taken. The fact I hadn't slept properly in nearly two months and I now had abandonment issues and was terrified Kate would be taken away from me. But I didn't tell the truth.

"I'm fine" I replied my jaw slightly clenched.

I turned around heading upstairs before I could be interrogated more, Kate was still asleep in bed so I quickly slid back under the sheets to be with her. I placed my glass of water on the bedside table after a quick sip before laying back down.

"Have you taken your meds?" Kate asked.

I jumped slightly not realising that she had woken up. I let out a breath grabbing my chest after the initial fright subsided I shook my head.

Kate stood up placing a quick peck on my cheek before heading to the dresser and grabbing the pills off the counter. I had been given medication and to be honest I hated it, it didn't make me feel like me. I had a few for the mental side of things such as calming down my anxiety and PTS (post traumatic stress) I have which I don't think I have but whatever. The others were just for pain.

"You know I hate taking them Kate" I sighed.

"I know but you have to" Kate said.

She walked over and sat on my side of the bed sorting out the amount of pills I had to take, I slowly sat up sitting up with my back against the headboard.

"I don't want to put that shit in my mouth" I said.

"Y/n don't make this difficult" Kate sighed.

I brought my knees up to my chest resting my head on top of them, my head dropped looking down at the mattress.

I heard Kate place the pill bottles onto the bedside table, she sighed and I felt her adjust herself on the bed. Kate placed her hands on my knees and I looked up to greet her gaze.

"I know this sucks but you have to take them love" Kate sighed.

"You don't get it I hate how they make me feel" I scoffed shaking my head.

Kate reached up cupping my face with her hand.

"Without them it'll be worse, I know they suck I've had to take meds before and I know how they can make you feel but you're still adjusting to them" Kate said.

"No" I replied abruptly shoving her hands off my knees.

"Y/n-"

I cut her off before she could talk.

"No no you don't get it Kate, they make me feel numb they don't make me feel better they make me feel nothing!" I shouted.

Kate went to open her mouth but she didn't know what to say.

"I just- I want to feel like me again but I'll never be me again" I said.

I could tears rolling down my cheeks, Kate tried to hug me but I tried to fight it. She kept on preserving and eventually I just broke down my emotions coming out like water out of a floodgate.

Kate held me close as my body racked with sobs her hand rubbing up and down my back. I was scared she'd leave me now, that I was different and too much for her.

"Hey I've got you ok, I'm not going anywhere I'm here for you" Kate assured me, it was as if she could read my mind.

My tears were soaking into her purple singlet staining the violet fabric. Kate placed soft kisses on my cheek as I cried.

I pulled away once I had stopped and Kate offered me a sad smile, I leaned forward resting my forehead on hers.

"I'm sorry I just-"

Now Kate was the one to cut me off.

"You don't need to apologise Y/n it's ok, it's ok" Kate said.

I nodded and let out a small sigh as I gazed into Kate's eyes, my safe place, my home.