I Would Have You In My Dreams Forevermore (Bruno Madrigal x female reader)

To Fall Apart

"Mi amor,

Today was Mirabel's gift ceremony, and we know how that went. You are sleeping in the nursery with her right now. In the morning, you will find my letter and my ring. Mi madre made me have a vision. You don't know that right now, but you will when you talk to everyone in the morning. It showed the magic fading, Casita breaking, and Mirabel at the center of it all. It also showed Casita whole and unharmed, it's undecided. I know if I tell them what I saw they will blame us, blame me. I have to leave and I tried to, but Casita refused. I will watch you from within the walls. You are what Mira needs, I am not, and I pray that things blow over like our wedding. Then I can watch you nurture and love this familia. I'm not proud of this decision, but I know that I am not what this family needs. I hope you understand, mi vida.

-Bruno "

I looked up at him and frantically turned a few pages.

"Mi vida,

I can't sleep. I see what you are doing, stop, please stop. I didn't know they would do this to you, I thought I was helping. Stop using your gift. Every time I see you wake up with a cut, a blooming bruise, I hate myself even more than I already did. Why do you love me? You shouldn't love me. I have hurt this family, they are right in town to say the things they do. Let me try and do right by hiding, by protecting you and Mira from afar. Your cries will be the nightmare I deal with for the rest of my life. Those heartbroken sobs will haunt my every waking moment. Yours and Mirabel's. I heard her ask about me, you reassured her that you would find me. I cannot let you. I won't sleep until you stop, until you give up. I need you to give up, mi amor. I need you to accept that I am gone. I know if I stayed the cracks would have gotten worse. Casita showed me the cracks, and I cannot ruin you or this familia. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.

-Bruno"

Tears were falling hard and fast as I flipped forward a bit more to read another entry.

"Mi amor,

Julieta and mi madre talked about you today. I was so wrong. I knew mi madre didn't like you, but Julieta? You, Julieta, and Pepa were so close! She said that it was your fault Mira didn't get a gift, that since you had one, Mira didn't get one. Mi madre, she blames you for me leaving. Little do any of you know that I am still here. They decided to no longer heal you. They won't help you find me. Please give up before you seriously hurt yourself. Please. I don't know what I would do if you... I don't even want to think about it. I can't think about what would happen if Julieta didn't heal you. I'm watching you now, you are crying and Felix is trying to console you. He has always been like a brother to you, I remember you saying that when you helped with Milo's gift ceremony. Oh no. Julieta just told you she was done healing you... "

I looked up at Bruno as I read, he wiped tears from my face and nodded for me to continue.

"How are you so impossibly oblivious?! I am furious, not at you mi amor, never at you. I am furious at Julieta for playing upon your trust like that. You know that she is struggling with Mira not getting a gift, so you just told her you understood?! I'm pleased that Julieta looked a bit taken aback. She knew that you wouldn't think that she was being malicious, I'm sure of that. You even tried to hug her, to console her. How could she? How could she look you in the face and turn your sympathy so you think that you are the one that needs to console her?! I- wait mi madre just walked in. This is a shitshow. Forget my telenovelas, I am watching everything crumble. Why did I do this? I know I did it for you, for Mira, for our familia. Looking at this now? I almost can't watch."

I knew what came next, Alma removed me from her household. I shuddered. Bruno took the journal from me and knelt on the ground in front of me.

"You can read them later. It's all ten years. I-" He looked so sad, so ashamed. I felt anger and loss mix with my self pity. I couldn't raise a hand to him, even if I wanted to slap him for watching my life go to ruin.