The Way It Is (Way Too Deep Sequel)

Chapter 38📔

"Are you dumb ?"

Dear diary ,

This whole shit with Pebbles was fucking with me. I didn't want for my boy to go through no shit like this. I felt for him. I couldn't say I wouldn't do it though. Like I would just leave him alive. He was going to die regardless.

I think I'm pregnant again. I'm laughing as I'm writing this because another kid? For my sake though , I hope I'm not.

Honestly, it was way to early to tell anyway but I just feel that shit. Jahvon would be happy as fuck. I would be giving him his first son, he says. Shit....

I looked down at my diary. Looking over the words I just wrote. That was all I had to say today. Or at least for the moment.

I stretched in bed. I was growing tired of waiting for Ryan's ass. He wanted have an us day because we haven't since I've been home.

He was taking forever to pull up. I looked over at the clock that said '2:30pm'. He had wanted to go out to eat. Said he was in the mood for some pasta, which I agreed on.

Getting off my bed, I walked over to my mirror. I took the prettiest pictures in front of this mirror.

Looking at myself I smiled. Yani definitely helped me grow into my grown woman body. After having her, I gained so much confidence. I fell in love with my self all over again. Loving every inch of me. Flaw and all.

My phone started ringing and I knew it had to be Ryan.

"Hello Ryan." I said after answering the phone.

"Little girl. Come on, I'm outside."

I hung up the phone and went downstairs to put my coat and boots on. I turned the hallway light of before walking out the door.

It was cold out today and I had no clue what this boy had in store for us other than going out to eat . I hope we were staying indoors because what the fuck.

"Where we going?" I asked as soon as I got in the car.

I instantly melted into the the heated seats. He knew to have this shit on before he even pulled up.

"Mind your business." He said.

I cut my eyes at him but opted not to say anything.

"It's indoors." He said.

"Thank fucking God."

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We ended up at a poetry jam after we left the restaurant. I got excited as fuck. I loved the vibe I was getting in here and it was warm. Everybody was smiling and talking amongst themselves.

I looked over at Ryan who was looking around. We always talked about going to ones of these but in the summer time.

"Why now?" I asked him.

"'Cause that wack ass shit happened to you and I feel like you need a breather.
Shit I need one." He said looking down at me.