1. Memories, For, When I Am. (Being edited 2024)

Letters To An Empty Home

something I wrote because I lost touch with a friend of mine. She was like a sister to me and yes if you're wondering her boyfriend gives me the kinda weird feeling sorta chills. you can interpret it how you will, I won't go into detail......it's painful. I bet she's forgotten and so have the rest. I at least hope that she's happy now. Her name was Nichole.

Hey, Hi, How are you?
I'm fine, sitting in
my once thoughtful but
now empty room
as I sit here
I wonder about you
are you sick, are you
well? I'll never know
cause you won't tell
as I clearly see
that my mailbox remains
in solitude, nothing to
deliver into my hands

I don't know why
I keep this up
maybe i just miss
your company,
when we used to share
secrets
and stay up all night
like partners in crime
hand in hand
but I guess that's
over and ended now
I don't see how
I let you slip through
my hands and evade my gaze
I need to regret nothing
and traverse back to better days

So I'll keep writing you
until you send back,
in fact i know you'll find
it weird, but maybe he's better.....
So dear sister of mine
the door of opportunity is
open and behind it a phone
is ringing, so pick it up
"hello, yes it's me... return my call please."
I'm waiting
even if it's forever
I'll wait because
I don't want to let
you down......

but maybe I'm right,maybe
he is better, better than me
a stormy night where the moon
shone bright through the clouds
I doubt I'm any better....
So I'll watch the weather
and when the wind blows
north to you, I'll send
another by carrier pigeon
I hope you aren't busy then

I suppose I can keep this going,
this long distance conversation
I'll catch your attention, I believe
this, Sincerely, me
to: you
"that's how I'll start it"
I always say to myself....
maybe you've forgotten me,
I hope not because I love you
and he'd kill me if I said so
So I won't say it
because I feel these words
I write and mail will
end up falling down an
emptiness of a would be
bottomless pit of sorrow,
sorrow lost and later gained
by another subject to this
old fashioned letter sending
tradition of times past
and gone by

But what does it matter
what he thinks
if all these letters
are empty and meaningless
since he's probably convinced,
deceived, and deprived you of
what i have to say, so
I'll still send them in hopes of
you opening one
these letters i send
these letters to an empty home,
Sincerely,
me, your lost friend or other.