1. Memories, For, When I Am. (Being edited 2024)

On the road so far.

Edited to be more clear and concise by Saraphina-Thalia, Aug 1 2025

By Saraphina-Thalia and Allisson

September 2015

On the road so far,

This road so far,

Life continues, life goes on, I live without you happily. (Supernatural)

On this road so far,

Never knowing where we're going,

Trying to drive this car, our body, our life, this

Silence.

Yes this road so far, always

Needing paved with new concrete.

Same places new and old,

Same faces told and untold;

Far and near, tried

&

Hard/Hardy, but true.

And now I'm learning to release,

And love myself, love someone else who will never hurt me;

Rather than depend on someone, someplace, somehow to teach me,

Reach me.

We regret nothing along the way,

No matter how much we want to fade away.

We tried to teach you,

We tried to reach you,

But you will never love us enough between the words

"She" and "Her".

We're not living anymore just to hear your dirty words, or,

Watch you do your dirty work against us

Or against him.

Us.. Davis.. we're pets to you, we know that from

Living in your

Raged up, caged up, screw loose zoo;

Know that we're warning you that fate is gunning for you.  (Rare Americans - Cats, Dogs, & Rats)

On the road so far,

yeah the road so far.

We tried to love you,

Truly;

Even through your diligent duty

Of misconducts against our mind and skin.

Trying to lead us away from sin when you were already

Bleeding with, seething with, swimming in its sewers

Watching us drown and waiting till we go.

Don't miss us:

The image of us you perceived to be

Tried and true.

We deeply share disdain for the things you do,

And the Stockholm Syndrome convinces us

At times to not hate you.

Know that we are exposing your lies to those who see false light in you.

Not yet glad that we are here..

But we're keeping this gift of pain you gave near, so,

Thank you for fucking us up,

Soon we'll be cutting you off;

You'll just be a bullet that we've dodged. (Lynn Gunn, PVRIS - Thank You)

Thank you for everything, you never gave -

Only ever hoping through our destruction you could make us "behave".

One day you'll be so foreign to us that

Maybe we hold no spite towards you,

We'll hold no shame -

Knowing that the universe has whispered your

Future to us and soon you'll be made lame and tame

When the vessels in your brain burst

From all the unnecessary stress and hurt.

Please be careful, though it's far too late now

On your road so far.

We can't let it go, so,

Let us let you go.

Nothing would be better in our life,

If we could just say our goodbyes. (Billie Eilish, when the party's over - Furina's Version)

We won't thank you for the memories, know

Every night, every sight of you is a stand off.

Our memories from then and now aren't so good.

Everything smells like, everything is less sweeter near you. (Fall Out Boy - Thnks fr th Mmrs)

We'll hold them close to the heart you never once listened to - unintentionally,

Undoubtedly.

We could lie, but away from you.. we'll like it like that.