1. Memories, For, When I Am. (Being edited 2024)

Make believe

I lock my doors

A and give away the key

Maybe hoping to open them

Again someday when I

Feel better about myself

Remember what it is to

Absolutely trust

In what I can

Decide is right to share

Only to those I deem worthy

From careful evaluation

Waiting in this state of a

Hindering child's realm made from

Assumptions and predictions

Towards how situations come at me,

Insecurity is what they

Call it I believe

And maybe that's right

Never caring, always doubting in the

Beliefs of what I will amount to

Eventually, and resorting to indulgent

Conversation with those that seek to 

Overthrow the path life set for me

Margins, standards, and all in its whole

Even so, I play pretend that certain memories never happened

.....especially the ones that hurt most.