1. Memories, For, When I Am. (Being edited 2024)

Define Emotion

Holding hands,

Kissing in the corners of a dark room

Where no one can see you,

Saying I love you,

But do they actually mean it?
Laughing at empty words,
Laughing at thin air,
Immense anger over frivolous
And stupid things easily fixed,
Feeling Feelings put there by another
Keeping you awake while you weep
In your sleep.

I can go anywhere I want

And ask for a description

And to whom ever I speak it's different,

I know there is no definite answer

And like a cancer it's spreading

Consuming my mind when I think

Of describing it.

I'm not desperate nor am

I eager to be let down by someone

Who sets out to let me down

Because they are selfish and inconsiderate

I'd just like to know for once

Because these emotions inside are eating

Away at me

And for no reason I feel this

Jealousy,

This sorrow,

This regret,

This emptiness,

Because I lack the ability to describe

This basic human nature that i so clearly
Behold with these eyes

Because I'd like to know

But as it seems I can never find out
And maybe when I do find the words
To describe this something so indescribable
It will still in a sense and in a way lie and remain
Out of my grasping reach of the emptiness
Of this wanting to know
Wanting to know of something
Incredibly impossible to tangibly observe
In my hands,
Because sometimes i get confused
And ask myself as if i am google or
A dictionary define this basic human
Emotion which a book or computer cannot
Convey to me due to the fact
They can't experience as we do,
But it's ok I have no need to learn
Of this any time soon
Until i need to know I end my sentence
And and refuse to place any other words
Into definition, so I leave these
Sentences at define