1. Memories, For, When I Am. (Being edited 2024)

A Beat In Time

I'm a heart reader, I love listening to the lives of other people through how their heartbeats. Besides that when I'm told not to follow my heart I question why I shouldn't. This is for both. Enjoy.

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bum
can you hear it
the language of you hearts desire
spawned from the fire within the
abyss of your soul?
it wants you to listen
so it can lead,
hear the other story of your life,
the one disregarded left on the sidelines
between white lines
in the darkness while you sleep.

I lay there and I wonder
in the somber twilit glow
what could it want from me
though I've known already
that a heartbeat lasts forever
steady in time
leaving me to ponder
what I may have left behind
in it's swishing, flowing, bloody contents
of these veins under my skin
I wonder if that's how it finds where
it belongs.

maybe it's smarter than I
smarter than my mind
should I really not follow it at all?
I'm stupid
and my mind is repetitive in the ways
of its thought
though
my heart is repetitive
but it's always something new
maybe I should let what keeps me
alive decide how I thrive
in this world of love and war
since I wont be bleeding out anytime soon.

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bum
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is the lub dub song of the heart
it's sweet melody
drifts me to sleep
when its someone else's rather than my own
because in factuality I'm not listening to it
rather, I'm listening to them
and if I can make it beat like theirs
then possibly I won't have to be alone
as I die sometime not now or soon
but when it can't sing anymore.

I'll listen to my heart
beating in the dark
swaying and pounding through time
as long as
it listens to me,
but then whose story will be
present to behold?
mine or its
its or mine
only time will reveal its story

totell.

Every time I hug
someone.....
I find myself searching
for their
hearts,
beating slowly
and in time
wondering how far
they truly have
to go.