"I need to go home." I say to both Kate and Harry. I stand up and grab my things. I give Kate a thankful look, and avoid eye contact with Harry as I brush past him. I can't look at him right now, and if I do, I'm going to lose it. Unfortunately, he grabs my wrist to stop me from walking, "you weren't meant to find out this way", he whispers. I stare at the ground, "I don't think I was going to find out at all if you could help it." I say to the ground, pulling my wrist away from his grip. I continue walking and of course, he follows me. "Please just look at me, Alexa." Rage fills my body as I think about all the lies he has ever told me, and I realise that this is the lie that is finally going to tip me over the edge. I turn to him and look him right in the eyes, "Fuck you, Harry. Fuck you. If I meant so goddamn much to you, why the fuck did you keep this from me? For crying out loud, you'd think of all people, you would come to me. But no, once again, I'm left in the fucking dark. I'm always left in the dark, until it's convenient for you. I'm supposed to just stand by and be okay with the fact that I am always being let down by you. I can't do it anymore. I don't even care that you've become an addict in prison, I'm fucking hurt by the fact that once again, you have lied to me. You promised me there would be no lies. What the fuck is wrong with you?" Tears fill his eyes. Part of me still wants to run to him and hug him and tell him how much I love him, but I stand my ground. "You know what, Harry... part of me truly wants to hurt you the way you have hurt me. I love you, Harry. I want to be with you, but you don't respect me. I know that we've both done bad things to one another, we've both fucked up. But last week you looked me in the eyes and promised me that you had changed. You promised me that things were different. Yet here we fucking are again. Caught up in another lie." I look back at Kate, who has been unfortunately caught up in an incredibly awful situation.
"I'm sorry." That's all he can manage to say. "I'm sure you are, Harry. You're always sorry. Every time, you end up being sorry. Do you see what the problem is? You keep fucking up and then you keep saying sorry. I can't be caught up in this anymore. I fucking love you with all my heart, and more than anything I want you to be a part of our daughters life. But what kind of mother would I be if I allow someone into her life who is a compulsive liar? You're only going to hurt her the same way you've hurt me." He says nothing. He looks like an empty shell of a person, but right now I don't have the energy to help him. "You're right. You both deserve better." I nod, feeling somewhat disappointed he doesn't want to fight for us, not that I'm even sure I would've been able to give him another chance, especially not in this moment when I am feeling so, so angry with him.
Kate steps in between us, breaking some of the tension. "I know it's not my place to get involved, but Alexa... from what I've been told by my father and by Harry, I know he loves you. Yes, it was wrong of him to hide this from you, but he truly wanted to make himself better for you and Lauren. His intentions were good, I promise you." I shake my head, "You don't understand how many times he has lied to me, Kate." I look Harry in the eyes, hoping he realises that I am well and truly over all the lies. "No, I don't understand. But my father told me distraught Harry was by his choices to start using in prison, and from what Harry has said to me, I know he means it when he says he wants to change for you." She looks between he and I, as if to ask if there's anyway we can work this out. "What if I can get him help and he can turn things around? Do you have it in you to give him a chance?" I'm not wild about the idea of another woman helping him, but at the same time, I am at the end of the line with Harry. He steps towards me and takes my face in his hands, wiping tears from my cheeks. Everything within my wants to push him away, but I don't. "I am going to get help, Lex. Please, one more chance. If I don't turn things around, you and Lauren will never hear from me again." I take a deep breath, wondering if I am really about to give him another chance. "Fine. Get help, Harry, because I can't fucking handle the lies anymore." I take a step backwards and walk away, knowing that if I stay any longer I'll change my mind about giving him this chance to change.
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Angel (H.S AU)
FanfictionAlexa was a model, and living a successful life. One day though, her mother decided she needed a touch of reality. She gets put to work in a local Metal Health facility, where she meets Harry Styles. He is a boy who's life has been over taken with d...
