Angel (H.S AU)

Chapter Twenty

As soon as I finish the interview I walk over to Louis, who doesn't look happy and I know exactly why. He thought I'd moved on from Harry. He thought that he was enough for me, and I pretty much just shoved that in his face. I approach him, and see tears in his eyes. "Am I nothing to you?" He looks past me, probably too angry or upset to look at me, which I can understand. "No. You don't understand, Louis." He frowns, "I don't understand what? Enlighten me, please!"e shakes his head, "You were lying to me. That three months that you didn't see him, you told me you got over him.. but you didn't. You went to see him yesterday, didn't you?" I look around and see a crown looking at us. "Can we talk about this later?" He deserves an explanation, but I feel like now is a bad time. "No. Just tell me the truth, Alexa." I nod, "Yes, I saw him." 

He grabs his jacket, "Get your stuff, I'll drop you home." Great, there goes my other relationship, not that I was expecting it to last after going to see Harry. It was only a matter of time before my Harry situation came between Louis and I. It's a shame because I really do like Louis, the timing is just all wrong. I want to try to fix this, but I know there's no point, so I follow Louis to the car. "I'm sorry." I say, while we get into the car. I am answered with silence until we reach my house. 

"Did you mean what you said, about your life being empty without him?" I want to lie to Louis to make this lay a little less worse for him, but the last thing I need to do right now is lie to him more. I nod, "Yes." He shakes his head, "I am nothing to you. Why did you even bother on us?" I was lonely. I needed comfort. "Actually, don't answer that." I close my eyes, wanting to disappear from this whole situation.. "I'm sorry. You have every right to be mad and I understand if you never want to speak to me again." He looks me in the eyes, "I expected more from you, Alexa. I really didn't think you were that kind of girl." I open the door and get out of his car. "I expected more of myself too." I shrug, there's not much I can do now. "Goodbye." I say, closing the door and heading inside my little apartment.

I can only guess that the next few weeks my name will cover magazines and articles and I will go through countless interviews, all for Harry. I flop down on my couch, and the tears I have been expecting all day finally fall, but are interupted by my phone ringing. I pull it out of my pocket and answer without checking who it is.

"Hello?"

"Hey, it's me." Harry. I don't know if I'm happy or not to hear from him. "I saw the interview."

I'm not sure what to say, so I stay silent.

"Your friend Emily somehow got my number and called me. She said you have a boyfriend."

"Had. We broke up after the interview."

"That's my fault."

"You didn't make me say those things, Harry. It was my choice to say them."

"I'm sorry I messed up your life so much."

"You didn't do anything wrong, don't apologize."

"I love you." His words hit me hard. Why does he always say those three words at the least convenient time possible?

"I can't do this again, Harry."

"Come back."

"You're kidding right? I came to you, and you told me it wouldn't work. You can't just say one thing and then sudden;y just change your mind like that!"

"I thought about it, and I realised I was stupid to let you walk away again. I can't live without you, you're the only light I've ever known. I love you, I honestly do and I want to be with you." 

Talking to Harry honestly feels like being on an emotional rollercoaster.

"Do you really mean this, Harry?"

"Of course. If that's what you want?"

I want to tell Harry that's everything I want, I want to go to him right now, but I'm so afraid. What if it doesn't work? What if he changes his mind?

"Alexa?"

"I'll come home tomorrow. Please don't let this be a mistake, Harry."

"I won't, I promise you."