Angel (H.S AU)

Chapter Forty Two

"Harry, I can't just leave the country without telling my parents what's going on." He frowns, "Why? You're not a child anymore, they don't need to know. They'll just try to talk you out of it." I shrug, "I won't let them. I need to let them know that I'm okay." I walk over to the pay phone before Harry can continuing trying to convince me out of telling my parents that he and I are going to America.

I dial in their number and nervously wait for their answer.

"Hello?" My mothers voice rings through.

"Mum, hey, it's Alexa." 

"Honey, where are you? We haven't heard from you for days and we're starting to get worried!"

"I'm going to America. With Harry."

"Harry? What are you doing back with him? And why on earth are you going to another country with him? Alexa, you need to come and see us and explain what's going on."

"I can't. Our plane is boarding in half an hour. I just wanted you to know that I'm safe."

"Alexa, you are not doing this."

"I'm sorry, but you don't have a say in this. Please tell dad I love him. I'll call when I get there."

"Don't bother calling. If you really go through with this I don't want to hear from you. Harry is nothing but trouble in your life Alexa. He hurts you time and time again, and being with him is not good for you. If you go with him, we're done with you."

"Mum, don't be ridiculous."

"I'm not being ridiculous, Alexa. I'm just sick of that relationship."

"Well that's too bad. Goodbye mum." 

I hang up the phone before she can say anything else, and tears fill my eyes. I hear a voice announcing that our flight is boarding soon and I take that as my cue to go. I turn back to Harry and try to put on a fake smile, but I completely fail. "Lexi, what's wrong?" I shrug, "It's fine. She just.." Tears fall from my eyes and I choke up. "She doesn't want anything to do with you if you go through with this, does she." I nod, "Yeah, something like that." He looks me in the eyes, "If you want to stay, I won't be mad." I shake my head, "I need to get out of here, Harry."

-

Harry's P.O.V

I walk out of Alexa's room yet again in anger and frustration.  I look back and see her sitting on her bed in tears. She looks exhausted and miserable, the complete opposite to how she looked the day I met her. I get it, I'm not a perfect guy, but I feel like any other guy wouldn't get her into this state. What do I keep doing wrong? I can't seem to do anything right in her eyes. I leave her house get in my car and go to the clinic to see Natalie, she's about the only person I know who might be able to help me right now.

"Hey." I say, walking over to Nat's desk. She looks up at me and frowns, "Hey. What are you doing here?" She says in an angry tone. "I came to talk to you." She smirks, "I just got off the phone with Alexa." I run my hands through my hair in frustration. Of course Alexa called her before I could get here. "You realise that she's not going to stick about forever if you keep treating her like absolute shit, right?" I nod, knowing she's right. "But I love her."

"You don't love her, you just don't want to be alone. Or maybe, maybe she's good for your ego, or maybe she makes you feel better about your miserable life, but you don't love her, because you don't destroy the person that you love!"  

-

"Harry! Alexa!" I hear a voice call out to us as we're going to check in our bags. I turn around and see Louis running over to us. He comes over and pulls me into a hug. "Natalie just told me what's going on.. You're really leaving?" He asks. Harry and I both nod. Louis looks at me, "Can I talk to you.. alone?" Harry's grip on my hand tightens but I give him an approving look, and he lets go of my hand, and Louis and I walk away to talk. 

"What's up?" Louis frowns, "Are you making a good decision here, Alexa?" I shake my head, "Louis if you came here to tell me that I shouldn't be doing this or that I shouldn't be with Harry I don't want to hear it." He sighs, "I'm not here to tell you what you should or shouldn't do. I just couldn't let you leave without saying goodbye." He smiles weakly, but I know there's something else on his mind. Before I have to ask, he tells me what's on his mind. "I still love you Alexa, but I'm trying to be happy for you, even if I'm not." He looks me in the eyes. "You can't do this to me, Louis. I've made up my mind." He looks in Harry's direction then back to me. "You're right. I'm sorry. Have fun, okay?" I nod, "I will. Goodbye Louis." 

I walk back over to Harry and he looks furious, but he also looks like he's trying to hide it from me. I hold his hand, "Ready to go?" I try to walk but Harry won't move. "What's wrong?" I ask, trying to avoid telling him what Louis just said. "Did he tell you he loves you?" I shake my head, "it doesn't matter what he said, Harry. Let's go." His pupils grow and his grip on my hand tightens as he watches Louis leave the airport. I move into his sight and look into his eyes, "Harry. I chose you. I'm here with you. Don't you get it? You're the one I want to be with. You're the one I love. Let go of the past and be here in the present with me." He takes a deep breath and nods, "You really love me?" I smile, "Yes." 

- Harry's P.O.V -

For the first time ever, I believe that she loves me, and I have no doubt. I think back to the conversation I had with Natalie, 

"You don't love her, you just don't want to be alone. Or maybe, maybe she's good for your ego, or maybe she makes you feel better about your miserable life, but you don't love her, because you don't destroy the person that you love!"

Maybe I didn't love Alexa back then, maybe I just tricked myself into believing I did. But I do now. I know I do. It's not about being afraid of being alone. I'm afraid of being without her. It's not about my ego, or her making me feel better about myself. It's about who I am when I'm with her. I love her. And because I love her, I will not destroy her.