Angel (H.S AU)

Chapter Forty Nine

- Harry's P.O.V -

I sit across from my mother and take a deep breath. We've been talking lately, trying to mend everything that happened in the past.. or I guess just move past all the shit I did. My dad hasn't forgiven me and wants nothing to do with me, but at least my mother is willing. The only thing is, I haven't been entirely truthful with her on the Alexa side of things. As far as she's concerned, we're happier than ever. I just couldn't bare to try and explain everything over the phone or over text. It was easier to lie, but now it's time to tell the truth. 

We finally get past the small talk and I know that I need to do it now. I need to do it like I'm ripping off a bandaid. "Mom, I need to tell you something.. about Alexa." She smiles, "What is it, Harry?" I sigh, "Things aren't how I told you." She frowns, "What do you mean?" 

"We're not together. We haven't been.. for a while." She looks at me with a shocked expression, "But.. I thought things were so good with you two. I thought you really loved her, Harry." I shrug, "A lot happened, Mom. In the end we just grew apart." She reaches over and places her hand on mine, but I flinch at the act. I'm not used to being like this with her. "I'm sorry, Harry. Maybe you will work things out and if not, I'm sure she'll always be somewhat apart of your life." I nod, "We're not going to work it out, it's too far gone. But um.. yeah she will always be apart of my life, she's pregnant. We're having a baby together." I say, and look down at the table. I've never said the words, we're having a baby together, aloud, and they just sound so surreal. "Oh. Congratulations, that's so exciting, Harry!" She says, but I'm not completely sure if she really is excited. "I can't judge this situation Harry, but despite what happened, I hope you're still helping her out - I'm sure this isn't easy on her." I sigh, "I haven't spoken to her in months, actually." I don't why I'm telling her this, because I know it'll only create more trouble for myself, but I kind of need a mothers guidance right now. 

"Months?" She asks. I nod, "Yeah." She sighs, "You need to go over to visit her tomorrow. You need to ask her if there's anything she needs and if there's anything you can do for her." I shake my head, "I can't, Mom. You didn't see how it ended, it was horrible. Days of fighting." I tense up just thinking about the fight Alexa and I had. "You're going to be parents together, Harry. It doesn't matter what happened, you need to get over your pride and anger towards the situation and be somewhat civil with her. You need to fix things before this baby is born." I know she's right. I'm honestly just not sure that Alexa will even forgive me, let alone let me in her apartment.

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I walk up to Alexa's door, and think about the conversation with my mom yesterday. I still stand by what I said about mine and Alexa's relationship, but my mother is right about the fact that I should be helping Alexa with this pregnancy despite what happened. I take a breath, and knock on her door. She opens the door with a smile on her face, but the smile drops as soon as she see me. "What are you doing here, Harry?" I sigh, "After speaking with my mom yesterday, I realised that I can't shut you out of my life. We're having a baby together, and I need to support you through that. I know a lot of shit happened, but I'm hoping that maybe we can just put that behind and focus on the baby. And I'm not saying that I want us to be in a.. couple.. I just, I thought maybe we could try being friends at least." I anxiously wait for her reaction. "I don't even know how I'm supposed to be around you anymore, Harry. After everything that happened.." I frown, "What are you saying? I thought we sorted this out, I thought we agreed that I would be apart of the childs life?" She smirks, "Harry you never gave me a straight answer of whether or not you wanted anything to do with our child."

"Look, we both said a lot of shit in the heat of things. I'm just asking for us to move on, for the sake of our child. It's best for the both of us." I am so close to saying sorry, and begging her to forgive me for all the shit I did, but I have too much pride to give in. What's most fucked up about this situation is that I don't even know why we're mad at each other anymore. She gives me no answer, so I decide to give up. I turn around and head towards the elevator and hear her shut the door, but before she can fully shut it, I turn back. "Alexa, please don't do this." She frowns, "Do what? What am I doing? I'm standing at my own front door of my own apartment." I shake my head, wondering why I bothered. "I have to go." I mumble. "Why am I supposed to make this so easy for you?" She says, stopping me in my tracks. "This is not easy, Alexa." I look back at her, and see a tear in her eye. "I ruined it all, didn't I? I'm so stupid." I fight the urge to pull her into my arms. "You are not stupid." Before she can say anything, her phone rings and she answers it. 

"Hey, Niall." Niall? Fuck. She's got a new guy.

She says something else that I can't hear and then hangs up the phone. "I think you should go, Harry." I nod, feeling defeated. "Can I call you? I know that we sorted things out, but I want to." She sighs, "Yeah.. sure." She shuts her door and I get in the elevator. I guess that was progress.. in a way. I can't shake the feeling inside that I've completely fucked up in letting go of Alexa. I know things were so crazy and it felt like we had reached a dead end in our relationship.. but what if there was more? What if, if we just kept pushing through all the shit, we would have found that things weren't so bad? And now it's too late. Now she's moved on and now she can barely look me in the eye.