"I need you to just ... leave. I need you to leave me alone for good, Harry." I blink away the tears in my eyes as I look at Harry standing miserably in my drive way trying to get me to forgive him, or even consider it. "I just want you to hear me out." I shake my head. "No. I won't. You don't love me, Harry. You've moved on, so it shouldn't matter wether or not I forgive you." He pulls at the roots of his hair in frustration.
"I'm sorry that I never got the chance to tell you how beautiful you look in the moonlight. I never got to figure out your flaws, because I could never see them through your perfection. I never got to sweep you off your feet and truly make you mine. I never got to lie beside you in peacefulness and hear your heartbeat without having another worry on my mind. You know, Alexa, I truly believe that God spent a little more time on you. You are amazing, and I'm sorry I didn't realise that sooner. I could never resist your lips, Alexa. I wish you could've found comfort in my arms. In my mind, we worked out so well, but reality didn't line up. Please just promise me that even though life has pulled us apart, you still own a piece of my heart. I will never forget the familiarity of your skin, or the softness of your lips. I hope that one day fate brings us back together, Alexa, because from the moment I met you, you didn't see me on the surface, you saw me for who I really was. No one ever loved me the way you did, and I thank you so much for that. It's funny, you know, because I always tried so hard to hold onto the feeling you gave me every time something went wrong with us.. I never really could, but what I realised through that was love will either define or destroy you. Please don't let what I did destroy you. Please. You are too beautiful, too incredible to be destroyed."
"Is this all there is for us, Harry? We fight, we breakup, we get back together and then we do it all over again? I'm exhausted, I can't keep doing this." I shake my head as tears fall from my eyes and I try to distract myself from the impressive speech he just gave. I want to believe everything he said, but something just won't let me. "I won't fuck up again, Alexa." I smirk, "Don't you get it? I will never believe you again. I'm so over your shit, Harry."
He stands there as tears start falling from his eyes. Why is he crying? He blinks to try and hide it, but it's more than evident. "I wish I could rewind my life to the very first day I met you. I never would've treated you the way I did." I shake my head, "But you never loved me, remember? It was all a bet. A big fucking bet. I was just money to you."
"Don't you fucking say I didn't love you. I loved you more than I have ever loved anyone. I was so fucked up, Alexa, you know that. I'm just asking you, one last time, please forgive me. I'll make it right and you'll never have to forgive me again, because I'll never fuck up like this again."
"I stuck up for you, against everyone." I think back to all the shitty arguments I had just to stand up for him. It was all for nothing. "And you know what's even worse? You broke my heart. And I hate you because I always loved you. I was so naive and I gave you everything - and you gladly took from me, Harry." He frowns, "You're just angry, Lexi." Is he serious? "I am not angry, I am in pain and you are the one that put me here. The person that was supposed to love me more than anything."
"Do you really think you're going to find someone else, Alexa? I know you still love me. I know the thought of finding someone else makes you sick. I know that you'll never forget how you feel when you're with me. I know that you are just angry and eventually you'll move past that. You just need to look past the anger and then you'll find it in yourself to forgive me. I know you will."
"Maybe that's true Harry. Maybe I never will find anyone else that I love as much as you. Maybe I never will experience the same joy with anyone else that I experienced with you. But you know what? I am sure that being alone would be much less painful that ever being hurt by you again."
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After about an hour more of arguing Harry finally left, after I agreed to call, or at least text him tomorrow. I am drained. Not just from that argument, but from everything. The whole thing. I can't believe that this is my life. I wish I never came to visit my parents that one day because then I never would've been roped into working at that stupid goddamn clinic. I never would've met him. I never woulld've loved him. I could have been happy.
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Angel (H.S AU)
FanfictionAlexa was a model, and living a successful life. One day though, her mother decided she needed a touch of reality. She gets put to work in a local Metal Health facility, where she meets Harry Styles. He is a boy who's life has been over taken with d...
