Angel (H.S AU)

Chapter Thirty One

I reach out for my phone and grab it, pressing answer. Who the hell would be calling me at 2am? "Hello?" I mutter, rubbing my eyes.

"Alexa." Harry. I should've known. Do I answer or do I hang up instantly. I was convinced things would work with Harry and I, but the way he was acting when I left has started to make me feel differently about the whole situation.

"Please answer me."

"Harry, it's 2 in the morning here."

"I'm sorry, I had to hear your voice."

"Goodbye Harry." I hang up the phone, and wonder if that was goodbye for now or goodbye forever. All I wanted to do was help. I can't help but wonder what would happen if I never went to that stupid health clinic. Oh god, any chance of me sleeping now is gone.

*Alexa. Talk to me, please.*

I look at the text Harry sent me and then delete it, and throw my phone down on the bed, and head to my kitchen. I can't deny the fact that I've been somewhat miserable since leaving Harry, I'm trying to be happy, but it's so hard. I'm only happy when I'm with him; home for me is where he is. I make my way down the steps and try to push through the tears I can feel surfacing in my eyes. I'll only be here for a little while; I'll be home in no time. Too bad a while lasts forever without him.

I walk into the kitchen and open the fridge. No food. I look in the cupboard. Nope. I sit on the bench. This apartment is so incredibly lonely, I just wish he were here sitting next to me. I went to bed tonight almost at terms with the fact that Harry is miles away and I just have to wait it out. It's as if the universe it trying to test me by making him call me. Someone like him is impossible to find, and I just left him at the drop of a coin. I didn't intend for us to fall apart. I swore to him I'd always be there for him... I failed.

I was always hoping that we'd end up together. I was hoping that Harry would get better, and things would be perfect. I don't want to waste this trip focusing on him, but now that I'm here I see the reality of Harry and I. He is at home, and I am here and I was crazy to think that he would wait for me. In a moment of uncertainty I walk up to my room and grab my phone to text him.

*Still want to talk?*

*I just wanted to apologise for how I acted. But I guess it's too late. Hope you're enjoying America.*

*I do love you Harry. I'm sorry for leaving.*

*You aren't sorry. If you were sorry you never would've left.*

He's right. I know he's right, but what does he expect me to do about it now? I turn my phone off and lay down on my bed, letting out a huge sigh. I wish I could've been better to him. I wish I could've known that me coming here would effect him like this. He acts so strong, and as if he has it all together, but he doesn't. I knew he wasn't ready to be left, and I still went and followed my own desires. And now I'm suffering the consequences.

Harry and I broke up before we left. We did. I need to move on, this is just another consequence of me leaving. He will find someone who can love him more than I ever did. He will find someone who makes him smile every day of the week. He will find someone. Please find someone.

- Harry's P.O.V -

I wait with my phone in my hand for a whole hour, just hoping for a reply which never comes. I look at the last text I sent and mentally slap myself. How could I be so stupid? She's never going to come back with me saying shit like that.

I scroll through my contacts and stop on the name that was most recently added. Kaitlyn. I barely know the girl but I know one thing - Alexa's not coming back and I need company. I text her asking if she's free tonight. She wasn't so bad, and I think if I get to know her enough she could become decent company. I mean, she's nothing in comparison to Alexa.. I need to stop thinking about her.

*I'm home all night. Come over whenever you like..*

I read Kaitlyn's reply and then grab my things and head straight to her house. I need to occupy my mind somehow otherwise I'll do something stupid like buy a plane ticket to America.

Heeey! I'm really sorry that my chapter's are so short these days! I barely get much time to write at college and unfortunately assignments and such must come first! Much love to my readers, I appreciate you all very much! X