"I have a court case tomorrow." Harry says, standing at my front door. I frown, "What are you talking about?" He sighs, "I got involved in some stuff a while back.. drugs. Anyway, I got caught and long story short, I have a court case tomorrow."
"Why are you telling me this, Harry?" He sighs, "I might go to jail, Lexi." He is not going to jail. He can't, he is the father of my child. "You're not going to jail. That rarely happens." He looks up at me with tears in his eyes, "It does happen. I can't predict what the judge is going to decide and I'm not going to pretend that it's not a possibility." A tear rolls down my cheek, but I wipe it away quickly. Harry spending time in prison is the last thing I can face. He pulls me into his chest, and hugs me tight. I'm praying that Niall doesn't see me in Harry's arms, but leaving his hug is the last thing I want to do, because I can't help the feeling that this is a goodbye hug. Seeing Harry so vulnerable is a weird change from how he has been lately. From the day he came to the hospital up until this day, one year later, he has been.. cold to say the least. Some days he's good, others he's worse. But this is the most he has opened up to me in a long, long time. I can't say that he has been a bad father though, he has been there for Lauren and cares so much for her, but clearly he still hasn't got his life on track.
"Let me know how things go, okay?" I say, as I pull myself away from his hug. "Well, if you hear from me, it went well. If you don't hear from me, I'm locked up." He says with a disappointed smirk on his face. "Harry?" I hear Niall say, walking towards the door. Harry pulls himself together when he sees Niall, obviously not wanting to seem weak in front of him. "Just leaving. Good bye." He says, leaving quickly. I walk back inside and shut the door, and Niall instantly questions me. "What was that all about?" I shake my head, "Nothing, it doesn't matter." I plaster a fake smile on my face. "What would you like for lunch?" I say, hoping to change the subject.
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Niall has been asking me what's wrong all afternoon, but I just can't bring myself to tell him. I know that if I tell him what's going on he's going to try his very hardest to convince me of what a terrible person Harry is, and he's going to use this the fact that he's facing jail time as a reason for me to cut Harry out of my life. I just wish he would understand that Harry is Laurens father, and nothing will change that. My phone buzzes, pulling me out of my thoughts.
*Please can we spend tonight together? I might be gone for a long time, Lex. I'm just asking for one night with the love of my life.*
He can't honestly be asking me to do this. Niall would kill me if he found out. But what if this really is Harry's last night of freedom for a while? I know it's bad of me to even be considering spending the night with Harry, but seeing him today just gave me a massive soft spot for him.
*Okay. I'll come to your place around 7.* I text back, and instantly feel guilty. I walk to my room and grab an overnight bag. I'll just tell Niall I'm spending the night with a friend, and hopefully he'll ask no questions. I shove in enough clothes for the night and tomorrow and whatever else I'll need. I walk to the kitchen where Niall is, and walk over to him, placing a kiss on his cheek. "Can you watch Lauren tonight, baby? I was going to stay at a friends house." He frowns, "Since when do you have sleepovers?" He asks, laughing. "It's just.. one of my girlfriends is going through some stuff, she could use a friend." I say, feeling extremely guilty. Lets hope Niall doesn't ask who the friend is, because let's be honest - I don't really have any friends anymore. "Okay. Lauren and I will be fine, enjoy your night." He kisses me, and continues cooking dinner. That was easier than I thought. "I'll see you tomorrow." I say, heading to my car.
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I sit down on Harry's couch, and he falls down next to me, sighing. "I can't believe I might be going to fucking prison." I shake my head, "Don't think about it Harry. Just try to enjoy tonight while things are okay." He smirks, "Okay? Things are not okay. Things are fucked up." He lays his head down and closes his eyes. "I'm sorry I put you in this position, Lexi. I just miss you so damn much." I hold his hand in mine, "I love you, Harry. I always have and I always will." He sighs, "You love me but not enough to be with me." I shake my head, "You and I both know it's not as simple as that." I wish so badly things never got so fucked up for Harry and I. "The only reason it's not that simple is because you can't forgive me, Alexa, face it." I don't want to start a fight with Harry, not tonight. "No, it's because history shows that when you and I try to give things a go, it never works. Wouldn't you rather just avoid the pain of another failed attempt?" He sits up, and leans over to me, placing his lips on mine. As soon as he begins to kiss me, a tear escapes my eye. "I made so many stupid mistakes, didn't I?" Before I can answer, he kisses me again and runs his hand up my thigh. I pull away, "I can't do this, Harry." Once again, he silences me with a kiss. "Please Alexa. I need this."
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I open my eyes and look around me, completely unsure of where I am. And then I realise. I really did spend the night with Harry. Fuck. I look over at his sleeping peacefully next to me. In a perfect world I would love to lie back down and snuggle into his arms, but this is not at all a perfect world. And then I remember the court case. Fuck. I grab my bag and begin to shove my clothes in it, while putting on the first I can find to cover myself before Harry wakes up and sees me. Not that it matters, I mean, we slept together last night. Part of my wants to slip out of his house without him even realising I've left, but that plan is already failed when I hear him wake up. "Leaving so soon?" I sigh, "This was a bad idea, Harry. I need to leave." He gets out of bed and walks over to me, pulling me into a hug. "Just stay for breakfast, I'll have to leave for the court case after that anyway." I ignore his question and grab my bag. "I'd love for you to be there, I mean, I know you probably don't feel like being at a court case, but some support would be nice." I grab my car keys, not wanting to give into his pleas. "Let me know how it goes."
"Alexa, why are you being like this? After everything we've been through, you can't just be there for me for one day?" He has got to be kidding me. After everything he has put me through, he shouldn't expect anything from me. "I have a boyfriend at home who's going to be crushed if he finds out-" He stops me mid sentence, "So you make love to me then you go back to your boyfriend?" I walk out of his house, "Good bye, Harry." I turn back to him before getting into my car, "Call me when it's over, okay?" He laughs, "From prison?" I try to ignore the reality that Harry may be going to prison today, mostly because I can't actually wrap my head around what I would do if that happened. Ignorance is bliss, right?
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Angel (H.S AU)
FanfictionAlexa was a model, and living a successful life. One day though, her mother decided she needed a touch of reality. She gets put to work in a local Metal Health facility, where she meets Harry Styles. He is a boy who's life has been over taken with d...
