Angel (H.S AU)

Chapter Fifty Four

You know how they say no news is good news? That is not the case today, because I fear that no news means Harry has been locked up and can't tell me how things went. It's 4pm and I check my phone for what feels like the hundredth time today, and I slowly accept the reality that he may already be behind bars. Surely it would be over by now. I just don't want it to be true. 

Niall walks over to me, sitting down on the couch. "How was your sleepover?" I frown, "Fine, why do you ask?" He puts his hands up as if to surrender, and laughs, "I was just asking, sorry. Something bothering you?" I shake my head, "No, I'm fine." He sighs, "Stop lying, Alexa." I look up at him, but before I can say anything he continues. "I know that something happened with Harry when he was here yesterday, you've been acting weird ever since he was here. And I know that you were with him last night." I frown, as if to ask how he knew and he answers my questions before I can ask it. "Found one of his shirts in your bag when I was cleaning our clothes this morning. Plus, you don't have any friends to have a sleepover with." A tear rolls down my cheek. "I'm sorry." His expression completely changes when he realises he was right. "Please just tell me nothing happened between you both last night." I close my eyes as more tears surface, and I say nothing, not wanting to lie anymore. "You've got to be fucking kidding me. You left me here with your daughter so you could go and fuck Harry. Unbelievable." 

"It's not like that." I say, trying to defend Harry for some absurd reason. "Then explain it to me, because it sure as hell looks like that!" I sigh, "He had a court case today. I think he's in prison." His hurt expression changes to confusion, "What? What do you mean you think he's in prison? He either is or he isn't, right?" I shrug, "He was supposed to let me know how it went, but obviously if the outcome was him going to prison.. I'm not going to hear from him, am I?"

"That's what he came and told you yesterday, isn't it?" I nod. "Do you love him?" He asks, and I look up at him through tears. "What?" He takes a deep breath, as if asking this question pains him, "Do you love Harry?" I sigh, "It's not as simple as that." He stands up, nodding. "I get it. I'm gonna go, clearly you're still trying to work out your feelings for him." He begins to walk away but I grab his wrist and stop him, "Can't we talk about it? It's just a hard situation, Niall."

"I don't want to talk about it, Alexa. I just need to go, I honestly think it's for the best. I've tried to tell myself time and time again that you and Harry are in the past, but I don't think you'll ever be done with him. I mean, you have a kid together, you guys are always going to be connected in some way or another and I don't think I'm ever going to be okay with that." I wipe tears from my cheeks, "I'm sorry, Niall. He just needs me right now." He nods, "Then I guess you've made your choice." I plead with him, "Please don't leave right now, just think about it." He looks away from me, "Alexa, if he's in prison, he's gonna be your main focus. You're gonna be visiting him, and he'll be calling you, and I'm just going to be that pathetic guy that pretends it's fine that his girlfriend has that much to do with her ex. I'm sorry but I think that while this is all happening you and I just aren't going to work." 

"Lauren loves you, Niall. Surely you aren't just going to walk away from her." I know that using Lauren to guilt trip Niall into staying probably isn't the best thing to do, but at the same time, he's like a father to her.  "I'm not her father, Alexa, Harry is." He sighs, "I'll pack up my stuff."

He walks upstairs, leaving me standing there pathetically. The girl who cheated on her boyfriend, with her ex boyfriend who's probably sitting in a jail cell right now. I pull out my phone again, hoping for some type of good news, but there's nothing. To make this shitty moment just a bit shittier, Lauren starts crying. Exactly what I want to deal with right now.