With Newtmas 2

The Choice of Love and Death part 2

NEWT POV:

Thomas told me to wait while he gets everyone. I found the stone wall with names on it. I put my hand over my name. 

"You know you have to tell Thomas the truth" said Alby. 

I can still see the dead. 

"I know, but I don't want him to throw his life away for me. Minho and everyone else needs him" I said. 

I took my hand off the wall. Alby patted my shoulder. 

"No matter what he chooses Thomas will still be with everyone. He will be in their hearts like us" said Alby. 

He put his hand down. 

"Anyway I have to go. I'll see you later" said Alby. 

"Bye" I said. 

I watched Alby walk away and vanish. I heard foot steps and turned to see every one. 

"Newt" Gally asked surprised. 

I smiled. 

"Hey" I said. 

I was instantly tackled with hugs. I didn't fall over but I could of. Thomas just smiled. 

"How are you alive" asked Brenda when we all broke the hug. 

"I never died. Some people found me and stitched me up after they gave me the cure and I later came to find all of you" I said. 

"Well I'm glad you are back" said Jorge. 

"Let's finish this talk over breakfast" said Aris. 

We all went to the kitchen. Frypan is still one of the cooks. I just hope I can have his stew before I leave. I grabbed a plate and got some food. We all sat at a table. Thomas sat next to me. We started eating and I picked up a fork. I cut a piece of the pancake off and ate it. It tasted funny. It's not a terrible taste it's more of just a plain taste. It might need some butter or syrup. I put some on my plate and took another bite of my pancakes. It tasted the exact same. I tried to take a sip of my water. It tasted plain. Everything taste plain. I don't even feel bloody hungry. 

"Newt you okay" asked Thomas. 

"Ya, I'll be right back" I said. 

I stood up and left. 

"Newt" Thomas said following me. 

I walked to the beach. I kicked the sand angrily. 

"Newt" said Thomas. 

I said nothing. 

"Newt what's wrong. Talk to me please" said Thomas. 

"I CAN'T BLOODY EAT ANYTHING THOMAS. I TRIED. ALL THE BLOODY FOOD IS BLOODY PLAIN. IT TASTE PLAIN AND TERRIBLE" I yelled looking at Thomas. 

"NEWT CALM DOWN. You don't have to eat the food okay? We can just think of something else" said Thomas. 

I signed and relaxed. 

"What are people gonna say when they find out I can't eat" I asked. 

"Look Newt you will have to tell every one that you are still dead but right now just say you aren't hungry. You're still healing" said Thomas. 

I hugged Thomas. I couldn't hear if his heart is beating or not. We broke the hug. 

"Later, I can't tell every one right now" I said. 

"Of course. When ever you're ready. I'm going back to breakfast" said Thomas. 

I nodded and stayed on the beach. Thomas left. I sat down on the beach and looked at the ocean. I watched the waves crash onto the land. I really don't miss being alive. Well I miss somethings about it but I chose to stab myself. I just wonder how I am going to tell Thomas that he is half dead. I stabbed his heart, okay barely but it still cut his chest and then he was shot. He is stable for now but slowly dying. However his body is fighting death and trying to keep Thomas alive. That is why he is half dead.