With Newtmas 2

Undying Love part 34

THOMAS POV:

I entered the church and found the room we were in. I looked at the pictures of Newt. There was ones from when he was baby. He was a cute baby. There was one from our wedding day. I don't know how I will live with out him. He knew he was going to die. And all I did was watch. Brenda walked up to me. 

"I know you don't want to talk about it Thomas but the zombies have decided to follow tradition and have Newt cremated so his ashes can be returned to the earth. They want to make sure you are okay with that though" said Brenda. 

"Where will his ashes be placed" I asked. 

"Probably the ocean. That way it will travel the world" said Brenda. 

I signed. 

"How am I suppose to live with out Newt? He was my everything" I said. 

Brenda put her hand on my shoulder. 

"Thomas, Newt might be reborn. Think about it, he can grow to be the same age while you only aged a year" said Brenda. 

"AND HOW LONG TILL HE IS REBORN" I yelled. 

The church was silent. 

"NEWT IS GONE. HE'S DEAD. I CAN'T SIT AROUND AND HOPE HE COMES BACK. I WANT HIM WITH ME. I HAVE NOTHING WITH OUT HIM" I yelled. 

"Listen to me Thomas, I know you miss Newt but please just give it time. Maybe Newt wanted to be reborn" said Brenda. 

"I don't want time. If I can't have Newt then there is no reason I should have my humanity" I said looking at the floor. 

"Tom that's crazy" said Teresa. 

"Think about Newt shuck face. Would he want you to do that" asked Minho. 

"I can't live with out him" I said. 

I ripped my z band off and stomped on it to smash it. I closed my eyes and felt my humanity slip away. I opened my eyes and everyone said nothing. I left the church. The only thing that will ever make me wear a z band again is if Newt comes back. I moved into the woods and lived in a cave. I finally decided to read Newt's letter that he left. I held the note and started reading.

Dear Thomas,

If you are ready this then I'm dead. I wish I could be there with you but I can't. So I'll give you a final goodbye Tommy. I want you to know that I'm not scared. Not anymore. You showed me the meaning of life. I could of done with out the fame but I guess I just needed a friend. That's why I don't regret meeting you. Back when I was just a depressed teen and you saved me. I remember that when I first saw you I knew I would always love you. Even after you told me you are a real zombie. If I could I would go back to that night and do it all over again and I wouldn't change anything. My hope for you is that one day you can say the same. I know I never told you this but I knew that when I died I wanted to be reborn as a boy. Mainly because I didn't have much of a child hood. The only thing that I worry about is that we won't be soulmates. So I want you to find that person who was made for you and do what you couldn't do with me. You deserve to be happy Tommy. Besides death isn't farewell forever it's more of see you later. So thanks for being my friend and making every day worth it.

I'll see you later Tommy.

Newt <3