Unbelievably Impossible (Fillechen ft. ALE)

Chapter 40: Fear

AN: Guys, hahahaha. Sorry pala last night, di ko na-update to ng maayos. Pero, this is na talaga. Hehehe, sorry ulit.

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Gretchen's POV

They say love can make you stronger. You can't do everything, but you'll certainly find a way to do anything for the person you love.

But fear, sometimes fear can make you think twice.

Katulad ng mga lalaking torpe, natatakot sa rejection. Katulad ng mga taong sinasaktan ang mahal nila because sometimes they fear that they are not good enough for the person.

Katulad ko, katulad ko na sinaktan ang babaeng mahal ko dahil alam kong wala naman akong kwetang tao eh.

And my fears finally came true, I hurt her. I broke her heart, and I saw how her heart shattered in front of me and I couldn't do anything to save those pieces because I, myself, was breaking.

I was fighting my own battle, I was fighting against myself and my fears.

 

*FLASHBACK*

 

Iniwasan niya ako, she was dodging me but I did everything para makausap siya. Kinausap ako ni A, she said I should give it a shot.

Kaya heto ako naghihintay sakanya, pero hindi ko pa rin alam ang gagawin ko sa mga oras na to.

I was having second thought already, nandito ako sa gitna ng court. Kakatapos ko lang mag-spiking at nandito ako naka-upo lang, nakapikit ang mga mata ko.

I was trying to get my strength, I was constantly fighting for my heart, I was fighting against my fears when I heard the double door opened. Somehow it made me smile that she came, she came.

"Ahem." I wiped out the smile on my face and put on my mask.

"Dumating ka." I said and I was not able to hide my happiness.

Tumayo ako at lumapit sakanya, hindi naman ito gumalaw sa pwesto niya at nanatili lang nakatayo at nakatingin sa akin.

"Tara dito." Sabi nito at umupo kami sa may bleachers, magkatabi kami.

The air was so thick with tension you can slice through it.

Tahimik lang kaming nakatingin sa kawalan, hinihintay ko lang siya na nagsalita, I want to say something.

I want to say how much I love her, but I don't know how. Hindi ko alam kung papaano at kung saan magsisimula.

My fear was slowly eating me up again.

"Ano bang gusto mong pag-usapan?" Walang emosyong tanong nito sa akin.