Cold Beast [COMPLETED]

Chapter 43

Chapter 43

I lost a baby without even noticing that I have one.

ramdam na ramdam ko pa din ang kirot sa tyan ko. I feel hallow.

kanina pa siguro ako tulog dahil si Frost ay kanina pa galaw ng galaw sa tabi ko. napaupo sya at nakaub-ob sa kama ko. he's asleep. Hindi ko alam na magkakaroon ako ng baby agad agad. at agad agad ko din itong mawawala.

I can't feel anything. I just feel so numb.

should I kill her? should I sue her to death? what punishment should I give her? condemn her?

napakurap kurap ako.

why the fuck are you even asking that, Gianne? you're a Queen. you have all the power. so why are you even confused about what you'd gonna do to that girl? where did your motto which is "above all, power" goes?

whatever you do when you're under influence of anger is a punishment. pick one. kill her, or let the anger subsides... and let her own karma do whatever she deserves?

hinawakan ko ang ulo ko. it's churning. God!

gumalaw si Frost at napaahon nang makita akong gising. kinusot nya ang mga mata nya at hinawakan ang mga kamay ko.

"are you hungry?" Hindi ako umimik.

how can be this guy so cruel and sweet at the same time?

he cared for me too much to the point that I thought he loved me too back then. and then he pained me with those words I've never heard all of my life. and then he beg. and I've learned that he hid Escowa. he chased them when he learned what happened. and now...

"hey..." marahang sabi nya at hinawi ang mahaba kong buhok.

"what do you wanna eat? hmm?"

"aren't you hungry yet?" napakurap kurap sya bago ngumiti kalaunan.

"let's eat together..." I said. tumango sya at tumayo.

"I want fried meal." I smiled a bit. he nodded again and went to the door.

may nilingon sya dun at kinausap. nang lumabas sya ay pumasok si Arnold. he bowed his head before approaching the sofa near me.

"do you feel anything? I mean... uncomfortable? or... hurt?" malamig ang boses nya pero bakas dun ang sinseridad.

umiling ako.

tumitig lang sya sa akin kaya umiwas ako ng tingin.

"my sister loves Frost so much." nilingon ko ulit sya.

"but he ignored her. what charm did you used?" tinikom ko ang labi ko.

"Erica suffered because of you. I love my sister so much. she's obsessed with Frost. she's sick. but what she just did to you was unforgivable sin." huminga sya ng malalim.

"she killed my supposed to be godchild." he smiled at me.
"I sorry. I should've given her her medicine so that her illness can be treated." Hindi ako umimik at hinayaan syang magsalita.

tumahimik naman sya at tinitigan ako ulit.

"she told me to rape you." seryoso nyang sabi na nagpalingon sa akin sa kanya.

what the fuck?! she did that?!

"I didn't. instead of doing that, I distanced myself from you. even if it'll break my sister's heart. and break mine too." kumunot ang noo ko.

"kung hindi mo natatandaan ay niligawan na kita noon. Lucian blocked me together with sir Kalvin. marami kami... sadyang matalas lang ang pakiramdam at pang amoy ng mga kaibigan mo." ngumiti sya.

binaba nya ang facemask nya at tumambad sa akin ang pamilyar nyang mukha. minsan ko na nga syang nakausap noon. he's a nice guy... how could he became this...

napalunok ako.

"you brother told me one day, way back we're high school that... you'll end up being with Frost. that you're in a relationship with him that's why I should back off. I did. specially when I learned that you're getting married." kinagat ko ang labi ko.

"Wala daw pwedeng pumorma sa iyo. 'cause you belong to that young Henderson."

bumukas ang pinto. tumayo si Arnold at sinalubong si Frost. hinanda nya ang isang maliit na lamesa sa room ko at dun nilapag ni Frost ang mga dala.

lumabas na si Arnold.

"what did he told you?" malamig nyang tanong nang tuluyan nang nakalabas si Arnold. he seemed pissed. umiigting ang panga nya at nakakunot ang noo.

"he said..." he then looked at me like an attentive student.

"you're so... ugly." una ay malamig ang tingin nya pero ilang sandali ay mas kumunot ang noo nya. his face lit up. mukha syang natatawa pero naiinis.

"w-what?" nilingon nya ang pinto at binalingan ulit ako.

kumuha ako ng fried chicken at kinagat iyon para ipakitang di ko na uulitin ang sinabi ko.

"he said that?" kunot noong tanong nya sa akin. Hindi ako sumagot.

kinuha nya ang kagat ko at ngumiwi sa akin.

"no." I laughed. umirap sya at ngumisi.

nilapit nya sa akin ang pagkain at umupo sa tabi ko.

he hugged me tightly. he kissed my shoulder.

"I can't believe you lost my child."

"I didn't know I had one."

"can we try again..." namula ako. kakamatay pa lang ng anak ko ay bubuo na naman? what the fuck? Hindi ba sya nalulungkot?

pero... gusto ko din naman. but... what the hell?!

"try what?!" he sniffed on my neck

"marry me again..." kinagat ko ang labi ko nang mapagtantong mali ang inisip ko. mabuti na lang at hindi ko iyon sinabi.

"oh... okay." he kissed my cheek.

"really?" seryosong tanong nya. I faced him. our lips touched a bit. he stiffened.

I kissed him. Dumapo ang kamay nya sa tyan ko kaya napadaing ako sa naramdamang sakit.

"Aray!"

"Shit! I'm sorry." Namula ako at nag iwas ng tingin.

"Let's eat." Lumunok sya at tumango.