Lost In Your Own Mind ~L.S~

47

__Harry__

"Niall, can I take the dress off?"

"You don't have to.. I can.." he whispered

"I want you to relax as much as you can. I don't mind, love. I promise."

He looked up at me with watery eyes.

"Listen" I whispered and cupped his face in my hands, "You aren't weak. You are the strongest person I know. I can't begin to imagine what you're going through, but I'm here and I will try to make this just the tiniest bit easier for you by helping in any way that I can"

"Th-thank you" he whispered 

"Of course.. Now lets get you out of this dress and into the tub"

He nodded and I turned him. I unzipped the back slowly then slid the little straps off his shoulders. "No matter what, your body is still beautiful. You are beautiful" I told him as I pulled it up, to take it over his head

"I feel.. dirty" 

"Once we're in the bath, we'll wash off all the dirty and you'll feel as beautiful as ever" 

When the dress was off, he was only wearing his panties. "You take those off while I get the water running?" he nodded and I turned to go into his attached bathroom..

When the water was warm and filling up, I dumped a bit of soap into it, making bubbles, then I grabbed a towel and walked back into the bedroom.

Niall was sitting, naked, with his hands covering his lap on the bed

"You don't have to be embarassed, it's fine. Here, you can cover up with a towel if you want"

I handed it to him and he stood and wrapped it around his waist.

"The bath's ready.." I told him

"Are you.. are you gonna get in too?"

I hadn't thought about it. If he wants me to, of course I will. There's nothing gonna happen between us. I love Louis and he's just needing a best friend right now.

"If you want, sure. Or I can sit beside the tub. Or sit on the toilet and wait for you. I don't mind."

"I.. will you get in with me?"

I nodded and smiled softly

I like being the one who takes care of people.. I know this is not a good situation and I'm not saying that it is AT ALL but I'm glad I can be here for Niall and he trusts me enough to let me help him.

I got him in the tub first and made sure the water was alright with him. Then Louis came back so I promised I'd be right back and I left the door cracked as I went back to the bedroom

"Hey.. is he alright?"

"Uh.. sortof. He's quiet still.. but he asked me to get in the tub with him. I told him I would- but I didn't know if you'd-"

"Hey" he stopped me, "I'm not the jealous type.. well.. not when it comes to Niall, okay? I know you're mine and only mine.. so go get in the tub with him, baby"

I nodded and hugged him quickly

"I just want him to be okay.."

"Me too. Tell him I'll put on a movie or something when he gets out. We can eat if he wants, or listen to music. We can sit in silence- I don't care.. It's whatever he wants to do"

I nodded and pecked his lips

"I'll tell him" I nodded

I walked into the bathroom and pulled off my dress. He watched me quietly. His knees were pulled up to his chest..

I pushed the boy-short panties off my legs then climbed into the bathtub..

I hadn't even thought about him seeing my scars on my thighs... but he did. Then he seen my arms.

We hadn't really told him yet. He just... he knew I liked my long sleeved stuff but he just thought I was self conscious or something. Maybe he suspected I hurt myself.. but I never told him

"Cookie.." he whispered

I pulled my knees to my chest as I set right across from him. 

"You.." he couldn't form a full sentence

"It's okay, Niall." I smiled a little, trying to assure him, "I'm okay"

He stared at me for a second then raised up enough so I could see his left leg. 

"me too" he sighed

and sure enough, there were very old scars across the top of his thight. deep scars.