falling for him<3 //steddie//

chapter 36: disappear

Steve ~
I stare at my dad. He's not real. He can't be. He's dead. My mom walks over to me and rests her hand on my shoulder. "Steve, there's a lot that happened." She said, sitting down in front of me. "He knocked on the door. I answered it, and I felt what you're feeling now, rage, sadness. But, he explained what happened, and I just think that you need to listen to him." Mom says.

I look over at Eddie. He had his hand covering his mouth, he looked shocked.

I look back at my dad. "Some things happened. My boss threatened to fire me. Your mother was ashamed of me. I just needed a break, from everyone. You know I would never try to hurt you, Steven. It was so selfish of me to do." My dad explained, trying to hug me. I push him away. "Get out." I write on the piece of paper and throw it at him.

He looks at me with sad eyes. Anger floods over me. Tears stinging my eyes. I point to the door. He walks out. I start sobbing. Eddie wraps his arms around me. "It's okay Steve." Eddie says, trying to calm me down. "Steven, he made a mistake. I know it's hard. Just think about talking to him again. Okay?" She asks. I shake my head. She sighs and hugs me before walking out. I cry into Eddie's shoulder.

Eventually, we both fall asleep. "Eddie?" I ask. "You can talk?" I ask, rubbing my eyes. "It still hurts, but yeah." I reply. "I know last night was a lot to process." Eddie says, holding my hand. "Can we not talk about it please?" I ask. "Oh yeah, of course." Eddie replies, kissing my cheek. Robin walks in. "Guess who I snuck in here?" She asks, shutting the door and putting a box on the bed. Lady and Ozzy jump out.

"THE KITTENS!" Eddie exclaims, scooping Ozzy up. I hold Lady in my arms and pet her head. I keep thinking about my dad walking in. The man who I thought was dead. He wanted to get away from me so badly, that he faked his death. It was my fault. I put my mom through this. I should be angry at myself. "Steve!" Eddie yells, snapping his fingers in my face. I shake my head and look at him. "Robin, thanks for bringing them." I look at her, putting Lady back into the box.

Robin nods and puts Ozzy back in the box and walks out. A doctor walks in. "Good morning boys, I have some great news!" He exclaims. "Eddie, you're being discharged! You don't have any terrible injuries, and frankly, we need the space. Just sign this." The doctor explains, handing him a clipboard. Eddie looks at me then back at the papers. He signs them and the doctor hands Eddie his clothes.

Eddie goes into the bathroom to change. "Steven, we'll need to keep you here for at least another couple days." The doctor says. "But I can talk." I reply, looking at him. "Great! But still, at least another day." He responds, walking out. I place my palms over my eyes. I need to get out. I put my knees up to my chest and bury my head into my knees. I feel a hand touch my arm. I don't look at who it is.

"Steve. It's okay. It's just another day." Eddie assures me. "NO IT'S NOT OKAY. I JUST FOUND OUT THAT MY DAD, ISN'T DEAD. OH, YEAH AND I'M STUCK IN THIS DAMN ROOM! YOU'RE NOT HELPING SO, JUST LEAVE." I scream. I look up at him. He takes his hand off of my arm. "Fine." Eddie replies, walking away. "Eddie.. you know I didn't mean that." I say, grabbing his hand. He breaks it off.

"I try and try to help you. But it never seems to be enough. I'M GIVING YOU EVERYTHING THAT I HAVE. EVERYTHING. AND IT'S NEVER ENOUGH FOR STEVE, NO. STEVE HAS TO HAVE CONTROL OVER EVERYONE. I'M TIRED. I HAVE BEEN TRYING SO HARD FOR YOU. I CAN'T BREATHE WHEN I'M AROUND YOU. IT FEELS LIKE I'M.. I'M TRAPPED! I don't care what you do now. We're done." Eddie yells, throwing his hands up and walking out. Tears roll down my cheeks.

Eddie ~
I start driving to my uncle's trailer. I drive past Steve's house. "DAMNIT!" I yell, tears taking over my eyesight. I bang my hand against the steering wheel. I park and sit in my van. I look over to the passenger seat. I keep remembering what Steve looked like with a sunset bouncing off of his hair. How his smile would light up a whole room. When he sang to me. Our night drives. He would roll down the window in the morning to feel the cool, crisp air.

His name tag was in the seat. I grabbed it and threw it out of the window. My uncle stood there watching me. I turn the radio up as loud as it goes and, start to drive. After everything I've done for him, he acted like none of it mattered. I parked and went to the woods where I had surprised Steve with a date. The table cloth was still there. I grabbed it and threw it. I fall onto the ground and look up at the stars.

I start to cry. I screw everything up. Everything. I sit up and look at the van. Everything good I have, gets destroyed. I walk back to my van and start driving back to my uncle's trailer. I park and knock. "Ed? What are you-" I interrupt him with a hug. "Oh, Eddie. What happened?" He asked, walking me to the couch. "Me and Steve... W-we broke up." I answer. He sighs and hugs me even tighter. "Is my bedroom-" " Yeah. I didn't want to change anything in case you came back." He replies.

I nod and walk to my room. I shut my door. I place my walkman over my ears and start blasting music. It's the only thing that helped calm me down. Well, besides Steve. I flop onto my bed. The past six months was for nothing. It's over. I hope he's okay. No.. I don't. I'm tired of hoping for him. I start fidgeting with my rings. I see my bat tattoo. Tears start dripping down my face. I want to be angry. I am mad. I feel terrible. I just want to disappear.

A/N: hey readers! okay, chill out. i know that was a lot to um... process. i know you're probably upset, BUT, i did put lady and ozzy in this chapter! i promised i would. im gonna let that chapter simmer in your brain. also, i start school tomorrow so you all might not get a chapter. oh and we're about to hit 4000 reads? thank you so much!!! thanks for reading! much love♥️
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