falling for him<3 //steddie//

chapter 43: headaches and heartbreaks

Steve ~
I open my eyes and get an immediate headache. There's a glass of water sitting on the nightstand. I take a sip of it and set it back down. I hear a noise coming from the living room, so I stand up. I'm a bit dizzy at first, but I manage to stumble out to the living room. I see Eddie and Nancy on the couch, asleep. I turn the movie that was playing off and sit next to Eddie. He opens his eyes and looks at me. "Oh hey, you're awake." He says, rubbing his eyes.

"You can go back to sleep. You look tired." I reply, looking down. "I'm alright. Did you drink some water?" He asks, sitting up. "Yeah. I'm okay." I reply, standing up. "Sorry for last night. I really didn't mean to-" "It's okay, Steve. I just gotta change my shirt." Eddie replies, walking to the room. I stand outside of the door. "Steve, you can come in, you know that right? I'm just changing my shirt." Eddie says, opening the door.

"Oh, okay." I respond, sitting on the bed. Eddie takes his shirt off and grabs a clean one. "I've never seen you cry that much." Eddie says, pulling one of my shirts on. "Sorry." I reply. "Stop apologizing! You're all good, man." Eddie assures me. "Thank you." I say, standing up and walking over to him. "For what?" He asks, turning around to look at me. "For taking care of me." I say, before giving him a kiss.

"Any other time, I would love kissing you. But right now, you need to brush your teeth." Eddie responds, laughing. I walk to the bathroom and start brushing my teeth. Eddie stands in the doorway, leaning against the wall. I place the toothbrush back and turn to look at him. "Now?" I ask. "Now-" Eddie gets interupted by a door opening in the living room.

I run past Eddie and make eye contact with Robin's parents. "Steve? How have you been?" Her dad asks. "Oh uh, good Mr. Buckley. And you?" I ask. "Great! We just need to get a few things, and we will be out of your hair." He replies, walking into his room. I nod and smile. Once he shuts the door, me and Eddie start sprinting out of the door. He starts the van and I get in. "Wait, why are we driving away?" Eddie asks.

"BECAUSE EDDIE, THEY DON'T EVEN KNOW YOU EXIST. SO, WILL YOU JUST DRIVE?! JESUS!" I yell. Eddie starts driving down the road, not acknowledging me. "I'm sorry for yelling. It's just, I don't know how they would react. Robin tried to tell them about her and Nancy but they didn't understand. They think that they're best friends, not girlfriends." I say, rubbing my head.

"Okay." Eddie replies, sounding annoyed. "Eddie, I said I'm sorry." I say, looking over at him. He nods, not taking his eyes off of the road. "Eddie..." I say, placing my hand on his arm. "You shouldn't care what people think. You're embarrassed. I'M SO STUPID! WHY WOULD SOME LOVE ME?! Not everyone is homophobic, Steve." Eddie responds, yelling.

"REALLY? YOU THINK THAT I DON'T LOVE YOU? AFTER, EVERYTHING WE'VE BEEN THROUGH? THAT I'M EMBARRASSED? SORRY, EDDIE, I'M JUST TRYING TO MAKE SURE WE HAVE A ROOF OVER OUR HEADS. You're the one who stopped going to work, so we can't save up for a house. Robin's house, is the only place we have. AND, BECAUSE I WANT TO HAVE SOMEWHERE TO SLEEP, YOU THINK I DON'T LOVE YOU? WOW. YOU KNOW, YOU'RE PROBABLY THE ONE WHO DOESN'T LOVE ME." I reply, also yelling.

Eddie ~
I slam on the breaks.

"I don't love you? REALLY? I have sacrificed SO MUCH for you, Steve. You didn't care. It didn't have anything to do with STEVE. EVERYTHING IS ABOUT STEVE. IF STEVE DOESN'T WANT IT, IT'S A NO GO! BECAUSE KINGGGG STEVE, HAS TO HAVE EVERYTHING. HIS. WAY. YOU WANNA KNOW WHY I STOPPED GOING TO WORK? BECAUSE MY FRIEND IS IN LOVE WITH ME. AND, I AM IN LOVE YOU, STEVE. YOU. NO ONE ELSE, BUT YOU. YOU'RE THE ONE I WANT TO WAKE UP NEXT TO EVERY MORNING. YOU. AND, I DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW YOU DON'T SEE THAT! I AM IN LOVE WITH YOU. I HAVE BEEN, EVER SINCE THE FIRST TIME WE KISSED. EVERY. SINGLE. SECOND. OF EVERY. SINGLE. DAY. IT DRIVES ME INSANE! BECAUSE, WHEN I NEED TO THINK ABOUT SOMETHING FOR WORK, OR FOR SCHOOL, I CAN'T. YOU WANNA KNOW WHY, STEVE? BECAUSE ALL I CAN THINK ABOUT IS YOU. SO, YEAH STEVE, I'M IN LOVE WITH YOU." I yell, tears streaming down my face.

Steve shoves his head into his arms. "I am in love with you." I mumble, choking on my tears. I hear Steve sobbing into his arms. I start driving again. I can barely see because of the tears, fogging my vision.

I still hear Steve crying. Tears keep rolling down my cheeks, seemingly unstoppable. I park at a 7/11 and get out. I shut my door and walk inside, rubbing the tears away from my eyes. I grab two bottles of water and walk to the counter.

"$2.00, even." The cashier says. I hand her a five dollar bill and grab the waters. I walk out, and get back into the van. I set a water down next to Steve and take a sip of mine. He lifts his head and looks at me with bright red eyes.

He sniffles then grabs the water. He avoids eye contact with me, staring out of the window, while sipping the water. We sit in complete silence the whole ride back to Robin's house.

I park and Steve gets out immediately, slamming the door. I sigh before, walking in behind him. Robin and Nancy look at us both, confused. "What happe-" Robin gets interupted by Steve slamming the bedroom door. "We... got into a fight. A big one." I reply, sitting on the couch. "What was it about?" Nancy asks.

"I told Steve that he was embarrassed for me to meet your parents and that he didn't love me. He got mad and yelled, and told me that he thought that I didn't love him. So... I-I yelled back. I told him that I did. I MEAN, I DO! I really, really, love him. And, when he said that he thought I didn't... I snapped." I respond. Tears started to run down my cheeks again.

"Steve, open the DAMN door." Nancy yells, banging on the door. He doesn't respond. "HARRINGTON, I SWEAR TO GOD, IF YOU DON'T OPEN THE DOOR, I WILL KNOCK IT DOWN! AND YOU DON'T WANT TO SEE THAT, STEVE! BECAUSE, THEN I'LL BE HURT. AND, YOU KNOW I'LL DO IT TOO. STEVE. OPEN. THE. DOOR." Robin exclaims. I shove my head into my palms.

I screwed up, for the millionth time, this month. Maybe I should just leave. I hear the door creak open. Robin and Nancy push past him and he shuts the door. I should leave. I've screwed their lives up enough. I'll come back later, when he's asleep. Yeah. I grab my keys and walk out the door. I start driving to the picnic table in the woods. It's the only place where I feel like I can breathe. It calms me down.

Tears start dripping from my eyes again. I wipe them away and park. I walk to the woods and lie down in front of the table, looking up at the stars. I take a few deep breaths. My nose is stuffy, so I can only breathe through my mouth.

I stand up and walk back to my van. He'll probably be asleep by now. I start driving back to Robin's house. The same words keep repeating in my head. "You know, you're probably the one who doesn't love me." He thinks that I don't love him.

I park only to see that Robin's car is gone. They probably went to the store. I walk inside and see Steve sitting on the couch, watching a movie. He's holding a pillow. I turn around and start walking back to the van. "Wait." Steve says, looking over at me.

A/N: hey readers! BE THANKFUL FOR THE AMOUNT OF FLUFF THAT YOU HAVE RECEIVED IN THE LAST THREE CHAPTERS. i thought it was time to switch it up😈 anyways, thank you for 6000! i love you all so much! i hope you enjoyed this chapter! much love♥️
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