Destroy me - KAI PARKER

69. || Love

My empty eyes stared right into Enzos as Bonnie was finally done with me. And just like that everything came rushing down on me like a comet that wanted to destroy me. Bonnie looked like a total mess because of everything she had just witnessed.

"Did it work?"

Caroline mumbled while biting her nail. A single tear dropped from my right eye, causing Enzo to sigh in relief. My brother walked up to pull me into a tight hug. As soon as his arms slung around my body, I gave in and made him stumble a little. I just couldn't keep standing.

"Enzo I-"

"Shh.."

My brother sat down with me in his arms, gently stroking my hair while I was having a literal mental breakdown. Not only was I reminded of betraying my own brother, no, every single thing I did in those past five months made me want to take me my own life right there on spot.

"I did all of those-"

"No you didn't."

I shook my head in denial. I knew that he wanted to put the blame on Kai but that wasn't right. Even if Kai forced me to flip it off, I was the one who made those decisions. The begging sounds of all of these people didn't stop torturing my ears. I was trapped in a constant loop of seeing their faces in front of my eyes. Their desparate calls for help and for me to have mercy.

When I saw my latest victims, my heart started racing. A child, not even half the size of me. I saw how her mother drowned her in a lake near by Disney World. I felt like I was drowning along with that little angel.

"Enzo- I- I"

My friends all watched me implode due to my own damn mistakes. I could hear Bonnie and Carolines sobs. My brother cupped my cheek and smiled a little, as if he was trying to tell me that I was going to be fine and that all of this was just temporarily.

"I murdered a child!"

I yelled in a loud sob, causing Enzos mouth to fall into an expression of disbelief and instead of focusing on me, he looked up at Kai. I could tell by the way my brothers grip around my got tighter that he wanted to kill Kai.

"I ruined everything! I told him how to link Elenas life to Bonnies- a-and Tyler, oh my god!"

My brother looked at Damon for help and he immediately understood. My two former cell mates carried me out of the cellar I was being held in to the living room, where the laid me down on the red sofa watching my panic attack to slowly fade away.

"I can't do this anymore.."

My tired voice came out in a single whisper, catching Kais attention. The others were too busy with discussing how they could help me to get out of this loop of canstat guilt and grief.

"You're gonna be okay. I promise you that one day-

"Get away from me."

I gritted through my teeth as tears were rolling down to my temples. Kai seemed to be shocked about the way I talked to him. What did he expect? Me forgiving what he had done to me? Me forgiving him for what he forced me to be?

"I won't leave you ever again. Not for one second Layla-"

"Leave!"

"Don't you remember why we turned it off? Our love was so strong that-"

"You didn't love me Kai."

Suddenly I sounded calm and at peace with everything, but I was not. Damon turned his head over to check up on me and as soon as he saw Kai by my side, he brought it up to the others. Enzo wanted to get Kai away from me but Bonnie held him back.

"I did- I still do."

Kai insisted with hint of despair in his blue eyes. In response to his words, I silently shook my head.

"Then we must have different definitions of love, because my love to you-"

"..It would've never destroyed you."

Kai proceeded to take my hand and even if I was so weak that I wasn't able to stand on my feet, I refused to let him touch me.

"Maybe I was good for your ego? You knew you had someone who'd defend you against everyone, someone who'd die for you.. But you surely didn't love me Kai."

I felt my body getting weaker with every word I spoke. It wouldn't take too long before my eyes closed for good.

"You're wrong Layla. I loved you and I still do. I love you with all of my heart. I fell in love with you the moment you wanted to dance with me at the diner in that god damn prison world- No one wanted to dance with me before."

"shocker."

Damon huffed, causing Kai to roll his eyes. He cupped my cheek and this time I was way too weak to shift away from him. Kais eyes filled with tears as he could finally touch me with his humanity on again.

"I wish I would've listened to you. I wish we never left the prison world, because now- I would die to spend the rest of my days just with you Layla. You're the one who taught me how to live, you're the one that taught me what it means to care- You're the love of my life, sweetheart.."

"...and I will never give up on us."

Kais words caused a tear to fall from my eye before I fell into an infite darkness...