Destroy me - KAI PARKER

71. || Bite me

"I uh- I just wanted to see you. I've heard you're back-"

"You wanted to see me?"

I passive aggresively spoke, causing Kai to fall silent. Damon knew that this wasn't going to be a normal conversation, so he walked over to his favourite shelf and grabbed himself a bottle of Bourbon. Kai watched Damon but quickly turned back to me and answered my question with a simple nod.

"Okay you did see me, care to leave me alone now?"

Although Kais mouth opened, the words got stuck in his throat.

"I also wanted to talk to you."

"About what exactly?"

"I don't know Layla- us?"

A huff tumbled off my lips. Us. Was there an us at any point in the past three years? Oh right! There was an "us" after I forgave Kai for literally stealing my magic and practically killing me. And there was an "us" before he killed Alarics wife, tortured my brother almost to death and forced me to turn my humanity off!

"There is nothing to talk about."

"Layla don't do this- I know that you have stuff to say to me."

"No. I don't."

Kai shook his head took a step closer. His blue eyes stared into mine as he shook his head, not accepting the fact that I didn't want to talk to him.

"Whatever you have on you heart, just tell me, I deserve it."

"Yes you do."

I hissed into Kais face, jolting a little towards him.

"So, tell me."

"Fine."

I crossed my arms in front of my chest and walked around the couch to stand right in front of him. Damons glare followed me, just in case he had to intervene. I have never felt so sad and furious at the same time until now. Just looking into his face, made me want to cry but also rip him into shreds.

"I hate you Kai."

It seemed as if I caught Kai off guard after telling him how I felt about him.

"I hate your shirts, that I keep finding between my stuff."

His eyes fell on to the one I was wearing at the moment, but he immediately looked back up at me, wanting me to continue.

"I hate the way you stare at me."

"I hate it that you're probably the only person that knows me so well."

While talking, I also was fighting against tears. I wouldn't allow him to see me cry over him once again. I was stronger than that.

"I hate you so much it makes me sick and I hate it when you lie."

"I hate the fact that-"

I pressed my lips against each other, not wanting to burst out in tears.

"I hate the fact that you didn't even call me after you turned into a vampire- I hate that you weren't around to see how bad I needed you by my side!"

A tear dropped out of Kais right eye, letting me finally let go of mine. The corners of my lips turned down when the tears were rushing over my cheeks. I tried to continue talking, but my voice was coming out in a single croak.

"You broke me Kai and I hate you for it, but I hate myself more than I could ever hate you because I- Because after everything you have done, I still love you."

"Layla I-"

"No. Just because I can't get over you doesn't mean that I want you in my life. If I could, I would have every memory of you compelled away. I would be so much happier if you didn't enter my life at all Kai."